Enter Me, Engineer ✅

CHAPTER 5

Nakatulala lang ako sa kanya habang siya ay parang kalmado lang. I look at him and look back at the cards. Still not processing why the hell he gave me this!

"What? Are you going to stare at me the whole time?" Tinaas niya ang kaniyang kilay bago muling binalik sa papel ang atensyon.

Napasimangot ako at bahagyang inirapan siya. "Paanong hindi matutulala kung binigay mo lahat ng cards mo sa akin."

"Actually, hindi pa iyan lahat. Mayroon pa ako sa kotse ko, do you want me to get it and give it to you?" He said that made me gap in shock.

"Ninakawan mo ba lahat ng bangko sa mundo?" I said in horror. He just chuckled and shook her head before he stood up and sat on the floor infront of me.

"I heard a lot about you..." He trailed off while playing with his lower lip. "They said you are a flirt and playing is your game. Is that true?"

Nagugulat man sa sinimulang usapin ay hindi na ako umangal. Malamang ay malalaman niya dahil ako lagi ang bukambibig ng inggitera kong schoolmates.

"Yeah, it's true," I chuckled and bit my lips.

Pleasure. It's only a word but it has a biggest impact in my life since my life was messed up. I became wreckless. I became wild. I became a person I didn't know I will became.

"Why? Can you tell me?" He asked while directly staring at me.

I looked at him and condition my self if I should tell him. Would it worth it? I sigh and look at the paper I was holding.

"You'll judge me if you know," I said as my tears started to flow.

I learn to be tough because that's what I need to live alone. Although, my freedom is nowhere to be seen, I know what's the best for me. Being myself is enjoying but it's painful too.

"It's okay if you won't tell me," He came towards me and hugged me.

Everyone judge me. Judge me for being a "flirt". For being not so smart. Every people that asked me about why I became like this, leave whenever I say the reason. I can't even tell why. They asked me why but why the hell they leave and look at me with full of disgust?

"Once upon a time, there was a princess. She though living is full of happiness..." I said. Telling it to him like a disney story. "The princess always laugh and smile. She always been a good girl to her parents not until the first man she loves, abbused her..."

My heart clenched in pain as I lean more on his chest. I clenched my fist and try not to burst more into tears.

"That time, her mother and father always fight and when the night came, The princess got abbused..." I said almost a whisper. "See? The princess doesn't have a happily ever after because when she learn to live alone, she never get attached with someone because she's too scared to be harassed again.."

Bumitaw ako sa pagkakayakap sa kanya at tinitigan ang mata niya. My tears started to pool around my eyes so I hugged him again for him not to see it. Being weak infront of people is not usually my thing. I cry and cry but in my room, without anyone knowing it.

"The princess grow into a strong and tought woman. Not mentioning that she's also beautiful," I heard him say but I just shooked my head.

"She's not strong and tough. She just thought that she was. Akala niya lang na malakas at matapang siya pero marupok siya sa loob niya. The princess seems to be fine but when the night came, she's broken," I draw a little circles on his chest before looking up to his face. "Why the hell you're like this? Nung party ni Clark ay halos itulak mo ako paalis sa harapan mo.."

"I'm having a bad day that time. I almost lost a million because the client insist that we should talk privately. I know what she means by that so I insist and tell her that we should meet at Clark's party," He shrugged and look down at me. "I'm sorry for being rude. I'm not like that."

"May I ask something?" I broke the silence after a long time of pause.

"What is it?" Gumalaw siya kaya akala ko ay babalik na siya sa pwesto niya kanina pero inayos niya ako at pinaupo sa hita niya. I find it comfortable.

"Why you don't have a girlfriend?" I asked. I know it's too personal but I can't help it.

"Business comes first..." He trailed off and pinch my nose. "Pero kung gusto mo ay pwedeng ikaw ang una kong girlfriend."

"Hoy! Alam mo! Paasa ka!" Hinampas ko ang dibdib niya at sabay kaming tumawa. Alam ko naman kasing bawal at malayo ang edad niya sa edad ko! Almoat 6 years ang agwat namin! And also, I hate commitment!

I promise my self that I won't do boyfriends until my last breath! Hindi ako maiinlove! Never!

"Let's be friends?" He laid his hand and I gladly accept it. Maybe being friend by him means I have a handsome and great accompany.

"Friends with benefits." I shake hands with him but he immediately pulled away after I say those words.

"Friends lang!" He exclaimed before blushing. He's blushing! Indeed!

"Namumula kala mo birhen pa!" Humalakhak ako pero natigil din nang umiwas siya ng tingin at lalong namula ang mukha.

"Are you a...." I trailed off as I watch his reaction. "V—virgin?"

"Tumigil ka nga! Isa pa!" Umurong siya ng kaunti at hindi parin makatingin sa akin.

"Virgin ka nga? Weh? Sa gwapo mong iyan? Seryoso ka ba?" I tickle him with my fingers pero inaalis niya lang iyon.

"Celestine! Tigil ka na nga!" He pulled me closer to him and cover my mouth with his hands. I laugh under his hands and lick it and he immediately pulled away his hands.

I teased him more until we are both tired and just continue studying. Mas lalong naintindihan ko ang mga lesson dahil wala ng awkwardness sa paligid na kanina lang ay napuno ang silid na ito.

Being with someone who will not pity me is made me contented. I just need someone who will listen and laugh with me and not to judge and pity me.

"Are you really into this course? Parang wala kang gana,"

He asked while we're both eating our lunch. I told him that I will not go to school today because I'm too lazy but he just laugh at it.

"Nanay ko lang ang may gusto," I shrugged and eat a spoonful of rice.

Dahil sa pagtatawanan at pag-aaral kanina ay hindi ko na naisip na wala pa kaming tanghalian. I'm thankful na meron pa palang sardinas na pinakamadaling kainin sa ref.

"Why don't you choose a course that you want?" He asked again. He put down his spoon and just stare at me.

"Ayaw ko nga mag-aral. Gusto kong tumambay lang. At saka pa, wala akong maisip na course na may konektado sa painting," I answered and shrugged my shoulder.

"Don't you know BFA?" He asked still not breaking his stares. I became concious so I immediately put down my utensils and lean on my chair.

"What is it? Ulam? Makakain?" I chuckled but immediately stop when I saw that he's serious.

"Bachelor of Fine Arts,"

"Hayaan mo na! Nakadalawang taon na sa BSE eh!" I continue to eat and not minding he's stare even I find it intimidating and awkward.

Being watch while you eat is so fucking awkward! Napadahan-dahan tuloy ang pagsubo ko at inayos ang postura para hindi magmukhang patay gutom.

"Kung gusto mo pag-aralin nalang kita,"

Bigla ko nalang nalunok ang isang buong isda ng sardinas sanhi upang mapaubo ako. Shet naman kasi!

"T—ta—tangina mo talaga!" I shouted at him but he just chuckled and watch me drink a water.

"Sabihin mo lang at pag-aaralin talaga kita."