Crowded Room

18. Secret

“ Camila?” Hailee’s voice made Camila realize the class had ended and she was just sitting down staring at her notes. “ What’s wrong with you this week? You’ve been acting super weird.”

 “ Nothing. I’m fine.” Camila says, organizing her things and standing up so they can leave.

 Truth was that Camila couldn’t keep Shawn out of her mind. It was like she was thinking about kissing him every second of the day and that was driving her insane. It’s been a week since they kissed in the rain and first made out at his apartment, and of course they had repeated it several times at this point. She’s been going to his apartment almost every night and they would fall in the same pattern: making out on his couch. He never pressured her to go any further, even though she still felt slightly embarrassed for revealing she was a virgin the way she did.

 “ Aren’t you late for rehearsals?” Hailee asks as they step out of the building.

 “ Yes, you’re right.” Camila says, looking at her phone. “ I have to run. I’ll see you later.”

 Camila makes her way across the street and runs up the stairs, ignoring the long line at the elevators. When she’s about to reach the door to the auditorium, she bumps into someone and all the papers she had in her hand fall to the floor.

 “ I’m so sorry, Camila.” Luke says as he tries to help her gather her stuff. He still hadn’t text her since he got her number, but she was kind of relieved about it. Maybe he saw the way Shawn was all over her all the time, but either way she hoped he wouldn’t try anything because she didn’t want to have to turn him down.

 They stepped into the auditorium, where some of the cast for the musical already was with Shawn and Taylor, working on a song with the girls who were playing the stepsisters. Shawn had a serious expression on, but the second he saw Camila walk into the room, his face lit up. She smiled at him and he made an excuse to come talk to her.

 “ Hey.” He said, pulling her in for a hug in front of all the other students. He squeezed her tight and discreetly left a kiss on her neck without anyone seeing.

 “ Later.” Camila whispered, pulling away from the hug and sending him a disapproving look.

 She wasn’t sure when they agreed that this thing between them would stay a secret, but it just kind of happened and now she had to admit she liked the whole sneaking around thing. They knew their friends were really suspicious, specially after their kiss on Niall’s stupid game, but no one had actually confronted them. Taylor was always sending them weird looks and smirks that told them she knew something and Camila was pretty sure Hailee had noticed by now how late she was getting back to the dorm every night, or some nights not going back at all.

 Rehearsal went by great and Shawn didn’t seem to have as much as a problem with Luke’s parts anymore. He actually seemed too happy and satisfied all the time and Camila loved to see the look of confusion on Taylor’s face whenever Shawn did something out of his character. It was crazy to think she had such an impact on him, but she knew he was affecting her just the same. Taylor even made a comment about Shawn being too happy, asking if he had gotten laid the night before. She looked at Camila like she was implying Camila was the girl she had in mind and Camila couldn’t help but laugh, which only made her friend more suspicious.

 “ I think Taylor knows.” Camila laughs when they walk into Shawn’s apartment later that night.

 “ Yeah, us leaving together after every rehearsal is definitely getting suspicious.” Shawn says before attacking her lips after closing his front door. “ But who cares?”

 “ I don’t.” Camila giggles when Shawn starts kissing her neck, his stubble tickling against her skin. “ But I do have to pee.”

 “ Sorry.” Shawn chuckles as he releases her and she runs down the hallway to his bathroom.

 When she walks out of the bathroom, she finds Shawn in his bedroom, sitting down on the edge of his bed with no shirt on with his eyes down on his phone. Camila takes a deep breath before walking to him and standing between his legs, taking his phone and throwing on the bed.

 “ Hi.” She says, smiling shyly at him as he lifts his hands to her waist.

 “ Hi.” He smiles back at her.

 Camila leans down and connects their lips, kissing him slowly as her hands run through his hair. She bites his bottom lip before kissing his jaw, moving her lips to his neck and taking in his familiar scent. She feels his hands holding her waist tightly, like he’s trying not to move them south, so she grabs one of his hands and forces it to move down to her ass. She loves how thoughtful of her he is everytime they make out, never touching her at any places he thinks might be too much for her, but she was starting to feel frustrated, wanting him to touch her everywhere.

 A gasp left Camila’s lips when she felt Shawn finally squeeze her ass, making her go back to his lips, kissing him properly. When she felt brave enough, she lifted her legs and straddled him on the bed, sitting down on his lap as his hands held her tightly against him. She knew she was testing him doing that with the short dress she had on, but she kind of wanted to test his limits. She let her hands slowly move from his shoulders to his chest, touching his skin until she reached his stomach. His lips were on her collarbone and she heard him gasp when her hand touched the skin right above the hem of his jeans.

 “ Camila.” He said in a warning tone of voice that made her giggle, his breath warm against her skin before she moved her hand to his face and guided his lips back to hers.

 She felt his hands back on her ass, but that wasn’t the only thing she could feel. He was getting hard under his jeans, she could tell that. It had happened a few other times before and that was always their cue to take a break, but she didn’t feel like stopping this time.

 “ I think we should take a break.” Shawn whispered against her lips.

 “ No, please.” Camila said, kissing him harder. “ Please, Shawn.”

 “ Okay.” He whispered against her lips, clearly not bothering her request.

 Camila let her hands go back to his hair as she slightly moved her hips against his, earning a throaty moan from Shawn. That was enough to make her do it again, this time not being able to hold in a low moan herself. She moved her hips a few more times, her lips going back to his neck, before he grabbed her hips and stopped her.

 “ Okay, now we really need to stop.” He chokes out, making her sigh in disappointment. 

 He was right though, she didn’t feel ready to do anything more than this, even if her body was screaming at her. He knew that and she felt like he stopped more out of concern for her, even if he was clearly struggling to put himself together at the moment.

 She placed one last kiss on his lips before getting off his lap and laying down on the bed next to him. He stood up and quickly walked into the bathroom as she closed her eyes and tried not to imagine what he was doing there. She took a few deep breaths until she felt him laying down next to her and pulling her to him, holding her and kissing her forehead. She was pretty sure no one would ever believe her if she told them Shawn was this caring and she was trying really hard not to let herself believe he was only like that with her and no one else.