blackpink one shots. (for your heart).

help me forget. (chaelisa)

Rosé P.O.V.

It's Saturday night and here I am in my room, listening to the outside world fill with noises. It was moments like these where I missed being apart of that noise. But here I was wallowing away in heartbreak. I take a deep breath in as I know my friends will be calling me up to go out once again. I lay down on my bed grabbing my phone turning it on to see an empty screen. I chuckle knowing they probably have given up (at least I hoped they had given up) but before I could turn it back off a familiar face popped up on my screen.

I sigh as I answer, "Hello?" I knew my voice probably had sounded annoyed but I knew better that they would have not cared if I was annoyed or not. They had one goal in mind and that was for me to become the noise outside. To finally start moving forward and start leaving this quiet lonely apartment. To finally start moving on. 

"Chaeyoung! Let's go out," I hear them yell. I look at the clock, 11:47 PM. I know they are waiting for an answer but I sit there just looking at the clock. I kind of hoped deep down they would call me out that I was probably at some random person's house but we all knew better. "When was the last time you've gone out with us? The girls miss you, I miss you," I close my eyes as I hear the distraught voice, begging me to go out with them.

It wasn't the first nor will it ever be the last but the way they said it. It made me feel guilty that I was being selfish and not letting them in. All they wanted to do was the help me forget, but here I was still remembering the pain I had felt once.

"What's the harm in a couple drinks," I said finally agreeing to come out of my depressed shell. I hear the girls yell in happiness as they tell me they are going to pick me up in five minutes. I hang up as I start to get ready. I look myself in the mirror and sigh at the mess I see. I rub my eyes knowing not even the makeup I had on could take away the tiredness from my face. I clear my throat trying to remember a simple phrase, you're going to be okay Park. Just a couple drinks then you'll be off. At least that is what I hoped for.

I hear my phone start to chime as I know they are here, I quickly go down the stairs and out the door. Quickly piling myself in the car trying not to regret my decision in going out, I see the girls smiling at me. Jisoo on the wheel as Jennie is in the passenger seat getting us ready for tonight. I look down to the middle seat that separates me and Joy and I could only swallow the lump in my throat.

Stop thinking about her, stop thinking about her, I tell myself over and over on the ride to  whatever club the girls  decided to drag me to. We walk inside as I quickly make my way to the bar forgetting about the other girls and reminding myself only a couple of drinks and I will go. I look around as I see Joy walking up to me with a girl I am not familiar with.

"Chae, this is Lisa, she's new in town," Joy said with hopes that I take a liking to this girl.

I look at the girl who smiles at me, I smile back as I know I need to play along with this whole facade, "Nice to meet you, I'm Chaeyoung," I say and the girl grabs my hand, something about the touch made her eyes sparkle as if we'll have something in the near future but I only clear my throat. Joy leaves me with the girl making up some excuse about meeting someone and conversation quickly ignites between the two of us.

"Do you want to dance?" She asks and I look at the dance floor almost as if I'm seeing myself with someone else. I look at her with sad eyes and I knew she understood. I close my eyes as I knew that coming here was a bad idea. Everything without her was a bad idea, but I looked towards Lisa who had a look of innocence on her face. Maybe being here with her wasn't so bad, I thought, shaking my head quickly as I knew she wouldn't like the fact that I am forgetting about her.

She nodded as she calls the bartender over as I could only look towards the dance floor as if they will play our favorite song, as if she'll show up and we'll sing until we couldn't sing no more, as if we'll be dancing till our legs hurts. But that song never came and I only sighed because she never came.

I look towards the bartender as he looks at me with intent eyes trying to figure out my order, "Uh, Jack on the rocks and a lemon drop-" I stop what I am saying as I know I'm with Lisa and not with her. He brings the drinks as he gives Lisa a blue drink rather than a yellow one, which I am so familiar with.

I sigh as I drink the lemon drop by myself, swallowing each gulp harshly as I know I shouldn't be here. I know this is her drink why am I still ordering it as if she'll be right next to me smiling once she sees the drink. I look at Lisa after I finish the drink and she knows those eyes, the eyes that say, 'you're a nice girl but I can't'. She understands them and I know I shouldn't be doing this but I do it any way. My thoughts were starting to get in way of having an okay night.

"Let's dance," I say and I grab her hand quickly taking her to the dance floor, quickly regretting everything. Almost as if she was watching me, almost as if she was there. I closed my eyes as I let the music take over me not caring about the past but the memories were there, haunting every single second of me dancing. This haunting was starting to get unbearable.

I remember dancing with her this exact same way, I remember the look she gave me when I would take her home, I also decide to remember the look she gave me when she left me. I opened my eyes as I saw Lisa giving me the same look, I swallowed the harsh memories as I leaned in kissing her with all my might, not wanting to think anymore. Not wanting to think about this haunting. Her lips were different, her taste was different, but I kept going.

I pull away as she looks at me with the same look she used to give me, I open my mouth but close it immediately. Her name almost slipped past my lips, the name I haven't said in weeks, maybe even months, I don't remember anymore. I hardly notice the subtle touch Lisa gives me when she wipes the tear that had fallen on my cheek. I swallow the lump in my throat as I know I'm crying. Kissing her was maybe the worst mistake I had made but something about it made me forget more and more of her lips. Her touch, her love, and this heartbreak.

She shakes her head as she takes a step back knowing she can't do this with me, I grab her arm as I want her here with me but she just pulls back with that look. I clear my throat as I let her go, I know that look to well. I watched as she left the bar, I watched as everyone around me danced to our favorite song, I watched as everyone sang it at the top of their lungs, I watched as everyone danced till they couldn't no more. What a perfect time for that damn song.

I looked around as I saw Jisoo, Jennie, and Joy walking up to me almost as they knew something had gone wrong. Almost as if their sixth sense had been alarmed that poor Chaeyoung was falling. But I waved them off telling them that I was leaving. They tried to make me stay but I quickly walked out of the club, wanting to get away from this place.

More importantly I wanted to get away with Lisa.

I looked to the right of me as I stepped out. I see Lisa waiting for what I can assume is a taxi. A part of me felt relieved that she was still here. She sees me as the taxi pulls up in front of her. I walk up to her quickly grabbing her by the waist as I kissed her, I pulled away as I looked into brown eyes, not remembering the blue eyes I used to look at.

"Help me forget," I said quietly as she pulled me inside the car with her. I needed to forget her even if I did say her name tonight. She was just another girl now and I needed to move on from her. 

I just wanted to forget.

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- noah :)