So many random facts
Swirling through my head
You put them there
So long ago
Yet I still remember clearly
Why is it that these things stuck
When there's so much else that I forgot?
Where did you learn them?
Goodness knows
But it made you happy
So I never asked
Just let you speak
And pass on
Knowledge
Obscure but profound
Useless but meaningful
Now it's all I have left
Little pieces you left behind
And everything I've ever loved
Becomes twice as valued
Can't seem to let any of it go
Because I'm afraid of losing
Any memories of you
Attached to these mementoes
So all I can do is try
Put this all behind me
And make like I can do anything
Because all I have left are dreams
And if those come crashing down
I may just fall, asphalt bound
As I hit the ground
No resistance left
I don't want to fight anymore
Too tired to keep going
But the feelings don't disappear
My pain won't fade
My favorite things are now a bore
Not sure how I'll fare
Not sure that I even care
Hope doesn't mean a thing
Brush away a single tear
Not sure what to do
So I'll stop right here
And take a rest
Move on when
I can breathe again
My heart stops clenching
Every time I think
Back to the days we missed
Can't even tell what I want
Not sure my life isn't a lie
Changing my mind
Everything becomes meaningless
Don't want what I used to
It all becomes so much more important
Hold it all close to me
All the pain
the memories
Close my eyes and try
Breathe in and out
Slowly
Watch it all fade away
Don't let it take me
Drag me under the wave
Though I want it to
If it means peace
Finally done
Nothing left
Feels like I'll be running 'til I die
Can't take this life
Falling, fading
Never felt less alive
But it too shall pass with time
Or so they say
And I'll move on with my life
But it hurts so bad
And I don't want to get over it
I couldn't if I tried
I'll get through it
Keep going until I do
Won't make it the first time
Won't give up on the last
Let my fear slip away
It took hold, so tightly
But I'll shake it off
And don hope instead
Like a cape of comfort
Security
Everything I need
To want more
Try harder
Push until I can't stand any longer
And then I'll know it's over
When my mind clears
And I can smile without crying
Say your name without hurting
Fill the hole in my heart with love
And keep fighting
Smiling
Hoping
Loving
Being
Trying
Caring
Living
Crying
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With Broken Wings (2013)
Poetry"Take these broken wings and learn to fly again." This is my own personal story of overcoming my demons and my grief. I define my recovery. ι'ℓℓ вє уσυя ѕнσυℓ∂єя тσ cяу ση, уσυя яσcк ωнєη уσυ'яє ησт ѕтяσηg ι'ℓℓ вє уσυя нєαят ωнєη ιт'ѕ вяσкєη, му α...
