KHADIJAH✔️

Chapter 5

20 April 2021

IF YOU WANT TO TALK TO ALLAH, THEN PRAY. IF YOU WANT ALLAH TO TALK TO YOU, THEN READ THE QUR'AN.

I kept praying for my brother, I couldn't eat or sleep, though Umma forced me to.

Around magrib prayer time, I dragged my weak body to our house me and Anty Zara. Umma is still at the hospital, she's spending the night with Khalifa.

Oh Allah he's still not awake, am scared. I don't want to lose him not now, his dreams, his dreams of making umma proud of him, making his sibling's life better, SubhanAllah! He will make it, he will make it Insha Allah. I thought.

I said my salam to Umma's room knowing no one would answer but I still pushed myself inside the room.

I saw my siblings lying down on the floor sleeping.

Subhanallah, why didn't I come back early, I know they cried not seeing one of us at home.

I woke them up and made sure they ate the little rice and pepper that Anty Zara gave us. Set their mat and the bedsheets for them to sleep.

"Where's umma?" My sister asked.

"She's at the neighbors she'll be back soon, okay just sleep now," I lied.

I can't tell them Umma is in the hospital because Khalifa is sick, I'll make the thing worse.

I took the kettle and performed ablution. I prayed maghrib prayer and prolonged my sujood, pouring all my problems to the best listener. I waited till Isha prayed then I prayed. I sat on Umma's bed and decided to have some sleep.

I couldn't sleep, I checked the clock and it said 3:24 a.m. I decided to perform ablution and pray, pray for Khalifa, pray for Umma, myself, and my siblings.

I sat there for only Allah knows I was just praying and at the same time crying, crying out all my sorrows to Almighty Allah.

I prayed Fajr prayer and went to bed again, I hope I'll have some sleep before the sunshine. And Alhamdulilah in no time I doze off.

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I woke up about 6:30 in the morning, knowing my mother and brother were in the hospital, so I couldn't have the peace of mind to stay any longer sleeping or being at home.

It was Monday morning I dressed my siblings and made sure they ate something and took something to eat at school. I took them to school and went straight to the hospital.

"Assalamu alaikum," I said my salam while opening the door gently.

"Wa'alaikumus salam," said my little brother.

I ran to him and hugged him, I couldn't let go of him until Umma came and made some sounds before we realized that we were still hugging.

My joy was above the world, I couldn't say anything but Alhamdulilah, Alhamdulilah that Allah brought him back to us, Alhamdulilah that he's okay.

"Ya khady, I was asking umma about you," Khalifah said.

"Khalifa, how're you feeling? What do you want? What do you want to eat? Should I make your favorite meal?" I asked Knowing that we don't have a piece of food in our house. But if he says he wants anything I'll surely look for it wherever it is. But I kept asking him.

"No ya khady I'm okay, we'll be discharged soon, maybe in the afternoon," He replied.

Okay then I helped him to stand up from the bed and he made his way to the bathroom.