The Diary of the Butterfly

Anxiety

Anxiety

I don't talk about this because I'm afraid it'll trigger me,

I have anxiety and it bothers me.

It's a weird thing that happens and I wish I could end it.

When it attacks me, I lose all control of me.

Everything is happening around me,

But it's slower than it should be.

My mind and heart are always in a race when it happens,

And it's generally always a pretty tight tie for who can run the fastest.

Sometimes I feel like I'm going to die and my chest is always tight,

Breathing suddenly becomes the hardest task known to mankind,

It doesn't last for more than a minute or two but if you were me,

In my shoes,

You'd feel like time moved slower than any snail ever could.

It's never a pleasant experience and it's not one you can ever prepare for,

It creeps up on you,

And when it grabs you,

You can never escape until it's done with you.

I don't like it,

And I wish I could stop it,

So,

I don't talk about this because I'm afraid it'll trigger me,

I have anxiety and it bothers me.

TionaH🦋