Needs, Lust & Love (OT7/reader)

~43~

Even if Jungkook should feel happy about the lovely night he has spent in his hyung arms, he is brought back to the depressing atmosphere in the dorm as soon as he enters the kitchen area.
Jimin looks like he has not slept, just staring at his phone and Tae has his head on the table, Jungkook is not sure but it seems like he is crying without a sound.
Jungkook goes to the kitchen to get himself some milk and cereals. Jin is leaning against the counter when he strolls in.
"Hey, sleepyhead." The oldest greets him, pulling him closer into his embrace to kiss him.
Jungkook cannot hold back the smile, even if he feels terrible about Y/N not being here, he also feels happy, happy to be back with his brothers, his lovers.
"Jin-hyung?" He asks shyly, looking up at his boyfriend's eyes. "Is it wrong to feel happy and sad at the same time?"
"Oh Baby. You are allowed to feel every emotion that is in your heart. It is not because you feel happy about our time together that you feel less sad about not knowing where our girlfriend is." Jin leans down and pecks his lips again. "And I want you to know that I am happy too. Happy to have you back with me."
They stay in each other's arms for a few minutes then they hear the others coming down.

"Listen up guys! Yoongi-hyung, Hoba, and I have decided that we will not let go of this mess with Y/N. We will start to look for hints to find her and bring her back to us all." Namjoon explains, the other two holding his hands.
"The sooner, the better," Yoongi adds looking over at the sad faces of the younger ones.
"Maybe you should start with the letters!" Jungkook lets out nonchalantly.
"Letters?" Jimin cries out.
"What letters?" Hoseok asks curiosity obvious in his voice.
Jungkook is afraid to have said something wrong so he looks at Jin for help.
"She left letters for each one of us," Jin says pulling the youngest closer to him.
"Where?" Yoongi steps closer to them, the impatience written all over his face.
"I don't know!" Jin replies defensively. "Mine was under my pillow."
"And mine in my sketchbook!" Jungkook adds, holding Jin close by his waist.
In a blink of an eye, Yoongi rushes back up the stairs. Hoseok follows him but he does not hurry as his hyung did. Jimin sits there for a moment, then runs to his room. As for Taehyung, he is not moving at all.
"Did you read it?" Joon inquired of the two standing in front of him, still clinging to each other.
"I did," Jin admits in a sad low voice.
"I was not able to. I panicked but I know I have to at some point." The maknae tells Namjoon as Jin pecks his forehead.
"What about him?" The leader points at Tae, who by now, they think, might be asleep.
"I do not know. He came here and just laid down like this. Until now, he has not talked nor eaten. He makes me worry, Joon!" The oldest informs his boyfriend.
"I am okay!" Tae grumbles from the table, " I just wanna lie here."
The other three exchange a glance but let Taehyung be for now.

Joon walks to the office to check on the emails and the messages that have arrived yesterday. He knows that he should be looking for her letter too but he can not, he is not ready to do it yet. As he walks over to the desk that is set near the window, his eyes catch the book he had started to read just before the enlistment. He had completely forgotten to take it with him. He smiles when he lets his fingers glide over the cover, memories of his time with Y/N in this room coming back to his inner eye.
When he places the book back, he notices the envelope that was lying underneath the book all this time. With shaking hands, he picks it up.
Should he just go ahead and read it? Or should he wait? Does the letter maybe contain any information on where she might be?
Namjoon plops down on the armchair, he used to sit in when his girlfriend was with him in this room. After a few deep breaths, he opens the envelope and removes the paper inside.