Addiction

6

Of course it's a corpse, that you, keep in a cradle.
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"I-it's nothing, can we pls just be quiet and comfort each other?" Jeongin asked as he played with Chan's shirt due to anxiety creeping up on him.

"Jeongin....I'll gladly cuddle with you.....but I want you to know that I won't judge you, tell other people. Pls try and trust me....I want to comfort you the best way I can, but I can't comfort you properly without knowing what's going on..you don't need to tell me now, but my comforting won't make you feel better unless you're willing to open up" Chan spoke.

Jeongin listened to Chan's words carefully, putting his full attention on him. Jeongin debated with himself wether he should actually tell all his problems or just some of it in general, or if he should just keep to being comforted. After all, he would still get comforted, the other option is just better and more relieving than the other one, while the other one is merely just temporary.

"I don't know...I've never shared with someone other than Hyunjin..I really want to open up I do...but it's hard and difficult to fully do so, I have never trusted anyone other than Hyunjin" Jeongin spoke as he looked down, he felt weak and afraid. He's been ignored his whole life, which caused him to be who he was. The drug addict and sex addict, that drinks a crazy amount of alcohol, and smokes atleast 5 cigarettes a day. Everything he was, was just an addict, and addict with no life, an addict that gave up his body for another addiction.

"That's fin-".

"But....I'm going to tell you, even though you might not like me after it..." Jeongin spoke before glancing at Chan, who gave him a reassuring smile.

"Go on, take you're time".

Jeongin took a deep breath as he got ready, as he preparing for Chan to just throw him out...well at least when his done telling the story of his life.

"I...I grew up in a family...where love and affection wasn't a norm..my dad has always been violent and abusive...but not toward me..but my mom....my dad sells her body to men so he can earn money, so that one that he can leave us behind..with nothing...my mom tried to kill me when I was younger, It was when my dad found out she was sleeping with my babysitter...my abusive babysitter to be exact. She blamed me for my dads abuse...she said that I'm the reason she was getting hurt by my dad...and that she should have had an abortion..I was around the age 3-6 when she was verbally abusing me...but someday she just turned a cold shoulder to me, she never spoke to, didn't even care for me, I had to cook for myself, go to on my own...she never dared to scold, educate, care, nor love me...my mom and dad is constantly fighting...each and every day.....when..I.. was 14, I...first started going to parties..drinking..and in taking drugs...at 15 I started sleeping around with people....to distract myself from what was going on at home...I wasn't given any love, affection throughout my whole life...I've been addicted to drugs and sex since I was 15...been drinking a lot since I was 14....I...never dared to like anyone i met..the only person i cared about was Hyunjin...his been my friend since i started school..." Jeongin finally stopped as he let go of the tears he had held for so long.

Chan however was completely shocked and concerned about the younger. The younger have been through a lot, all he ever needed was love and affection.

But was never given any.

"Oh Jeongin..." Chan let out as he engulfed the younger into a comforting hug.

"I hate myself so much-".

"No..Jeongin I know you're feeling down, but promise me to never sya those words again. You're such a beautiful, strong boy, you're capable of so many things, and I'm sure you have many talents" Chan comforted the younger and hugged him tightly. Hearing the younger cry made Chan's heart clench. He was oddly empathizing with the younger, who continued to bury his face into the older chest.

Chan was about to speak, bit was cut of by the younger's little snores. He focused on keeping Jeongin in his embrace as he caressed the younger's cheek. He let the younger lay on him the whole night, as he only watched the younger sleep...he looked ethereal when his was asleep. it was like a perfect sunset.

.......

Jeongin slumped down on his chair as he faced head down on his desk. Jeongin just reached school in time. It was already two days ago that he opened up to Chan, and Chan started sending cute text to him during the past two days, making the younger feel quite special.

Though, Jeongin was worn out and tired. His been up all night, getting high on heroin.

Of course Hyunjin who sat beside him noticed. Hyunjin was always there to help the younger, he kept countless pain killers, condoms, sleeping pills, vitamins, bandage, and many more. He knew for a fact that Jeongin had gotten high the whole night, and would help the younger through the day not wanting the younger to get psysically injured.

"Jeongin I have some pain killers in my back..and some melatonin if you want some" Hyunjin spoke, but put two painkillers on the younger's desk anyways, knowing the younger would deny his offer.

"If I took those pain killers would you make me feel better" Jeongin spoke as he referred to sex. The older only sighed as he watched the younger squirm slightly as he stood up.

"Let's make it quick" Hyunjin spoke, agreeing to sleep with him.

......

Jeongin bit his lip harshly he tries not to make any sound. Hyunjin's harsh yet also delicate trust knew exactly where the younger's prostate were.

Hyunjin is probably the best fucker out of everyone he got laid by, including Chan. Hyunjin's pace was perfect, not to fast, not to slow. It wasn't to hard nor to soft either, and he knew where the younger's prostate was located and never failed to hit it perfectly each time.

The younger was filled with an incredibly amount of euphoria running through his body. as he took the older into a meaningless kiss, blocking out the loud moans escaping the younger's mouth.

Jeongin just threw his head back, letting the older suck and leave marks on his neck, he immediately bit down right on the younger's sweet spot, licking the spot, before continuing leaving hickeys. Jeongin seemed to be on cloud nine. He was so overwhelmed with pleasure that he had a hard time holding back his moans.

Which Hyunjin luckily to notice at, as he placed a hand around Jeongin's mouth, turning the louder moan into plain, muffled noises.

It was around the 3rd period as the 4th is the last period before lunch..so they had an okay amount of time to fully finish of their work.

Jeongin softly giggled, as he began sucking on the older's neck, scratching his back with his nail as he bit his own lip harshly. He couldn't help but to think of Chan. Sure he wasn't staying loyal right now, but Chan and him wasn't really dating. Sure Jeongin wanted to take his relationship with Chan further. of course he felt bad about thinking that way, but it was the truth, and he didn't want to lie to Chan. After all he and Hyunjin have no romantic feelings for each other.

He gasped rather loudly once he felt his orgasm build up on him, and he could spot Hyunjin's was building up too.

It didn't take long for them both to finally spill their cum. Hyunjin pulled out as he tossed away the cum filled condom, picking up a pair of napkins on the way to clean up the younger.

Sure doing it in the school's bathroom wasn't as pleasant as in the bed, or other funny places. But they both still managed to get a perfect orgasm out of their hook up, calming their once tensed nerves down.

"Seungmin will definitely hate me" Hyunjin spoke out as he let go of chuckle, shaking his head at his thought of the possessive younger.

"I'll pray for you" Jeongin spoke as he pulled up his boxers and pants, as he continued to slid on the white shirt, decoratin it with a vest, after he had pulled on his tie. He looked in the mirror as he fixed his hair, looking back at his own reflection. He hated wearing uniforms but it was endurable enough.

"Not going to bother with hiding the hickeys?" the older asked as he walked up to him, putting an arm around the younger's shoulder.

"Nah-".

"Hey Jeongin!".