Addiction

20

You got weight in you're pockets, when you go to the doctors.
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Jeongin felt unsure wether he should actually step into the apartment building in front of him. Chan had told him to stay away from him...she didn't want to get yelled at.

The mental debate between stepping inside of the apartment vs going back home.

After all he was still drunk, almost sober..Hyunjin and Seungmin left him at the club to go fuck each other.

And it had started pouring only a minute ago, and he was already soaked wet.

Everything bothered him. His thoughts wasn't much to help either. He regretted every single actions he made and did or even said that night. He should've had stayed quiet.

Tears streamed down his face along with the pouring rain soaking his body even more. It was like he was drowning in his own sadness.

Pathetic, an idiot, and an asshole.

Those 3 words described who he was. He was pathetic for believing he had a future with the older. An idiot because he let Chan in, knowing everything about his life. And an asshole for letting him go so easily just because his stupid ass couldn't shut up.

Maybe he was in fact useless. Chan gave him almost everything after all. And he pushed Chan away like it was nothing.

Chan gave him a place to live. He gave him affection and love. He cooked for him. Took care of him when he was down. Paid for his hospital bill that one time he got sick. He really threw such an important part of his life away like it was nothing but trash.

And he hated himself for that.

Everything was a mess. He was drunk and crying under an expensive apartment complex that was probably private, he was soaked wet and his nose was running. He felt weak and pathetic.

All he wanted was to see the older, or maybe just catch a small glimpse of him.

But he knew that was useless after all.

Everything in his life seemed to hit rock bottom again. He had never imagine that even if he was away from his home...he was still the same broken boy.

All he could do was to just close his eyes, letting the rain continue to soak his body as he really didn't give two fucks if someone were to kick him away.

And with that said, a rather loud voice was heard beside him.

"Excuse me sir I need you to show you're ID. This is private ground, and police will get involved if you're not here to visit anyone".

Jeongin kept still as thoughts ran through his head. Almost ignoring the presence infront of him.

"Sir. You're ID" the man's voice once again filled the once quiet air. But yet again Jeongin didn't move.

It felt as if every single muscle in his body stiffened, every joint was glued in place..he felt paralyzed.

"Sir, I might need to call 199 if you don't get out of the area" he again spoke.

Silence.....

"Sir-".

"His with me..." a voice spoke gaining both the security and Jeongin's attention.

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"Hey Hyunjin where is Jeongin?" Seungmin asked as he slowly sat down, a blush still evident on his cheeks.

Hyunjin scanned the now almost empty club, the music was settled down to a slow song and the volume slightly down. Some people were completely passed out. Others still eating faces. And a few was simply just hanging at the bar.

"Hm I don't know...he wasn't in the restrooms either" Hyunjin spoke as he shrugged a bit, a worried look was evident on his face as he spoke.

"He probably went home.." Seungmin replied earning a nodding Hyunjin in the process.

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This was just a small filler chapter, it's short for a reason.