Addiction

45

God I wish I never spoke.
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The next morning came, and Chan woke up the younger quite early, not wanting Jeongin to wake up to a cold bed.

Jeongin kept clinging to the older, begging him to stay or to take him with him. But Chan couldn't do that, but he did promise to buy something for Jeongin before going home.

Chan was having a 7 days business trip outside Korea, which really didn't make Jeongin feel much better. Chan had to constantly explain to the younger that flying is way safer tha  driving in a car. But Jeongin still couldn't seem to get horrific pictures and seen of Chan put of his head.

But Chan finally talked the younger into staying and stay calm on general. Jeongin realised that he couldn't convince Chan and also understood that Chan needed to attend this business trip for the sake of the company.

After all of that happened. Jeongin had to watch Chan leave through the door, not forgetting to kiss the older a million times before he finally closed the door.

All Jeongin felt as he managed to limp back to the couch was emptiness. He had zero idea of what to spend his time on. He wanted to be a good boy and study, but he had little to no energy and no motivation to do so.

Memories of last night came to pay a visit as a deep red blush crept on his face. Feeling extremely flustered.

He glanced down at his wrists and ankles that were still covered in bandages and smiled.

It was the second time seeing that side of Chan, and he honestly didn't mind if he showed it more often.

The way Chan could edge him to such and extremely level, yet still leaving him wanting more was oddly arousing, the kinky side of Chan kinda surprises him.

Ideas of what he could potentially do ran through his mind. He wanted to spend time with Hyunjin and Seungmin. But he also wanted to have some time alone, just to focus on his own mindset a little.

He was still shocked over the surprising improvement in his life. He still couldn't believe he went from being abused and ignored by his parents and previous babysitter, and taking drugs, having sex and drinking alcohol, just to forget about everything going on in his life. To suddenly no longer thinking about his parents, or how they were doing, all he knew was that he had Chan, Hyunjin and also Seungmin to rely on, which he gladly appreciated.

And he was also proud of Hyunjin.

Hyunjin has always been an important part of his life, and both of them never imagined reaching adulthood. Hyunjin was the same as Jeongin, but his parents were different..but not in a good way. Hyunjin and Jeongin found stress relieve in each other. And he was more than proud of the older that he had finally found someone he could rely on, just like how he could rely on Jeongin. Just the thought of Hyunjin being happy made him happy.

Jeongin smiled as he thought back at the many memories he had with Hyunjin. The nostalgia hit him hard. He remembered how it used to be just him and Hyunjin, and no one else.

A part of him wanted to go back and experience those memories again. While the other wanted to stay, and feel proud of how far he reached.

He continued scrolling through his old albums of pictures and videos of him and Hyunjin, while smiling at each of them. He would love to just go back for a second to just feel how his 16 year old self felt. But he also knew that it was time to create more memories and pictures with Chan and Seungmin aswell, of course not leaving Hyunjin out, but just befriending new people sou dedicated exciting.

Seungmin has been talking about a guy named felix before, and even admitted that he would love to introduce Felix to him some day.

Maybe that someday could be planned through this week?