Addiction

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Mr.Houdini you're a freakshow.
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Jeongin sighed heavily as he stood infront of the big mirror, small yet faded bruises were still evident on his body which he had started to hate an increasingly amount more.

Insecurities has become his bestfriend and guilt had become the second. He hated and would gladly avoid looking in the mirror, he looked more than dead.

Now bigger details of his insecurities are getting more and more evident as the time went by.

Dark circles under his eyes from not sleeping, pale skin from the lack of appetite, marks still evident on his body and it was sickening him. He hated everything.

He remembered how much he wanted to wear his skirts that morning, but felt sick to his stomach at his own reflection.

Hie could Chan still love him,?

That's what he thought 24/7.

A knock echoed through the bathroom as Jeongin glanced through the mirror, spotting Chan who had a worried look on his face.

He shook of the feeling and went to back hug the younger, Jeongin gladly leaned in the older's embrace as he tried controlling his own tears from falling.

"Let them out..we all need to cry" Chan spoke as he pecked the younger's cheek.

"I've cried enough...I'm too weak".

"No you're not..crying doesnt determine how strong you are, it determine how expressive you actually are despite holding it back to a certain extent...I can tell that for a fact that you're not weak..but only yourself can choose wether what you go through should be permanent or temporary" Chan stated turning Jeongin away from the mirror so he gazed down on the younger's body scoffing lightly.

"I don't want you for you're body, face nor for my own pleasure....I want you because of you're personality, you are a bright boy despite being in a dark tunnel..you may not feel bright right now but..you're really a gift anyone would pay millions to have..yet you're here in my arms for free, the only price is love" Chan spoke against his lips barely touching them as looked up, right into the younger's eyes asking for consent to kiss him.

Jeongin gently nodded, craving the warm feeling inside of him, bubbling and boiling just like butterflies.

Their lips connected perfectly, sending waves of warmth inside of the younger. Chan was quick to pick up Jeongin as they shared the loving kiss, going to the kitchen as he put him down on the kitchen islands.

"You are beautiful in my eyes and you don't need to worry about other people's opinions on how you look, or what you're going through right now. You're taking you're own time to get back on you're feet again and that's totally fine...I'll cook some food for you to eat" Chan spoke with a soft smile before turning to the fridge opening It before picking out stuff he'd need.

The silence filled the room as only the sound of Chan roaming through the kitchen was heard. Jeongin smiled to himself as he watched Chan do his little dance which he did when there was anything related to food.

"Smiley boy".
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Sorry for the late update..I expected to update a chapter yesterday, but yesterday was the worst-.