Addiction

19

All the makeup in the world, won't make you less insecure.
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"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Jeongin, happy birthday to you!" Hyunjin and Seungmin sang as they both attacked the sleeping younger on the bed. Cuddling up close to him earning and annoyed groan in the process.

"Get up bitch!" Hyunjin exclaimed as he slammed a random pillow on the younger's head.

Jeongin sat upright as he sent a long glare towards Hyunjin, earning a laughing Seungmin in the process.

"How are you today?" Seungmin asked with a smile as he sat beside the younger.

"I wanna die" Jeongin replied jokingly which resulted in a pillow being thrown in his face.

Both Seungmin and Hyunjin stepped out of the guest room to let Jeongin get ready, which he really appreciated. He smiled to himself as he remembered the time where Hyunjin tripped over his own feet just to give him a birthday hug.

A small chuckle escaped his mouth as he focused on slipping on the red and black patterned, pleated skirt. Along with some black panties. He wore a black turtle neck sweater and tucked it into the skirt.

Of course the look wasn't finish without some accessories. He opened a small drawer where he managed to squeeze all sorts of jewelry into it. He slipped on some silvery rings, and searched for a necklace that would fit his fit perfectly. And of course managed to find two pairs, one was goldfish the other silvery.

A soft smile appeared on his face as he turned around to look in the mirror. A small nod from himself approved the look as all the mattered now was to face the two dorks in the living room.

"Hyunjin I'm ready- Woah woah woah....." Jeongin exclaimed before trailing off. His eyes were wide open and mouth hanging low.

"Are you seriously eating each others faces...like right now?".

Silence kept in once Zeungmin and Hyunjin pulled away from each other, both having a red tinted blush evident on their cheeks.

Jeongin just shook his head, trying to get the said image out of his mind. But he couldn't help but to remember Chan..he sighed heavily before once again shaking his head.

"Today and tonight we'll party like there's no tomorrow!" Hyunjin exclaimed loudly before standing up, running towards Jeongin to give his classic and usual birthday hug.

"Time doesn't change a thing I see" Jeongin muttered and recieved a laughing Hyunjin in the process.

.........

Time passed by as they had left the apartment a good 20 minutes ago. Only first entering the club now as they were met with music being blasted, people dancing, bartenders doing tricks, etc.

Jeongin ler himself get loose as he immediately went to the bar to get his first couple of drinks.

"One breezers, two bottles of vodka...and some red wine pls" Jeongin ordered receiving a nodding bartender in the process.

It was easy to get around the prices here, Jeongin was a common sight here after all. He had hooked up with the said bartender a few times before, but never really got to speak to him after all.

"Here you go pretty prince" The bartender spoke as he gave him a tray filled with all the drinks he needed.

"Thank you sir. I promise to pay you back sometime" Jeongin spoke as he send a flirtatious wink to the bartender before picking up the tray and walking towards a table where he spotted the other two.

He smiled at them before he placed down the tray.

"Seungmin do you drink?" Jeongin asked as he filled the shots up with vodka before passing one to Hyunjin.

Seungmin shook his head a little before responding.

"Only a bit.." he spoke in which Jeongin nodded.

The younger assumed Seungmin didn't drink, which was why he bought a single breezer for him.

It was the first time Jeongin was out celebrating his birthday. But he still had Chan in mind, still scared if his words affected the older a lot, or if he was simply just overthinking everything.

Sure he promised himself to forget about the older..but it wasn't as easy as said. He missed his embrace, his cuddles, he missed everything..he was such an idiot.

His thoughts stressed him out enough, and he wanted to sit back and enjoy the night...it was his first birthday party after all.

Without really thinking he almost bottled down one of the bottles of vodka, earning a worried look from Seungmin who had never consumed so much alcohol before.

Jeongin sensed the older's eyes at him and gave Seungmin a small smile before standing up with rather shaky legs as he stumbled down the small pair of stair, towards the dance floor.

"And this is how I'm bein legt alone?" Seungmin muttered to himself, feeling alone now that Jeongin went out dancing and Hyunjin on the toilet.

"Nah you can have fun with me" Hyunjin's voice appeared behind him, making him smile before nodding letting the older take the lead.

.........

Adrenaline ran through Jeongin's body as the music blasted loudly, hitting the younger's ear drum. He focused on swaying his body to the beat as he was surrounded by multiple other people.

Some were grinding on each other, others sucking each others faces, and some who just enjoyed dancing to the music.

The feeling of being surrounded by people while in a drunk state somehow gave him a feeling of safety. He remembered the first time he was out clubbing.

The memory of him being left alone by the table as his friends went out to do their own activity came back with a little surprise.

He was introduced to smoking and drinking at an early age, which turned out to become an addiction. He still had hopes that one day he'd get rid of those addictions, and instead focused on actually living.

But just thinking about living made him remember Chan.

The way the older showed him parts of lives he was never introduced to felt almost unreal. The love and affection he was given without the need of constantly fucking each other. He hated himself for letting such a beautiful diamond go, for hurting him, and giving him are hope. He couldn't believe he was out having fun on his birthday while Chan was probably in pain, or broken only because of the younger's words.

He felt the sudden need to check up on the older, he wanted to make sure he was okay.

He wanted the older back.