Addiction

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Oh, come, take my hand and run through playland, so high, too high, at the carnival.
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Jeongin scoffed as he pushed the older off of him, he glared at the laughing older whi was now on the floor.

"A week from now" Jeongin answered the question that was previously asked, earning a nod from the now serious elder.

"About the marriage" Chan started as he glanced at Jeongin who smiled while looking down at his hands. "What are you most comfortable with? Do you want to right away or..do you want to wait and plan it out slowly?" Chan asked as he went back into bed, with Jeongin now snuggled up to him.

Jeongin shrugged, not sure how to answer. He didn't want to sound ti eager and say that he wants to get married right away, but then at the same time he couldn't wait for Chan to be his.

And he was for a fact happy that Chan actually talked about this with him. He has been so nervous about what was going to happened, and having Chan ask into it was relieving.

"Let's discuss this when the graduation is over, I need to think wether I should be eager or not" Jeongin replied lazily making Chan burst into laughter.

Chan laughing was oddly healing, it could bring out the biggest smile you could ever imagine having. Chan had that effect that if he gently smiled giggled or laughed you would practically melt into happiness.

But why would did Chan hide that side of him? Jeognin knew Chan had his persona, but he really wondered why he chose to hide it.

"Chan, Felix texted me about going clubbing tomorrow..would you mind if I go?" Jeongin asked as he remembered the thought of his and Felix' conversation over the phone.

Chan was quick to look down at the younger who laid comfortably in his arms.

"Sure..but call me if anything's happens okay? Oh and also..you don't need to ask, just be careful okay?" Chan replied as he kissed the younger's forehead.

He had a bad feeling but shrugged dit off for Jeongin's sake, he didn't want to be in control of Jeongin's own life so he decided not to let his own gut feeling go in the way of the younger's will and happiness.

"Thank you Chan" Neingin muttered and kissed the older's lips lovingly as he snuggled closer to his chest, wanting to be as close as possible.

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"Heard you're going out with Felix" Hyunjin spoke as he came inside of the classroom with Seungmin now sitting on his lap.

Jeongin smiled as he looked at the now happy couple, nodding before answering.

"It's been a long time..I'm also in a way healthier mindset to not do anything stupid...It's a before graduating party, you should join if you want too" Jeongin answered with a smile, offering an invitation.

"I sadly can't join..but Seungmin?" Hyunjin spoke as he turned to Seungmin who listened in in the conversation carefully.

"I don't mind-".

"Okay class sit down and get you're books out" their teacher exclaimed as all the students in the class went to their own seats, some groaned as the lecture started.

Jeongin couldn't pay attention, he was more interested in sitting on his phone. It was odd, today felt odd, he had a weird feeling in his stomach but chose to push it away.

Maybe going back to the place where it all started was a bit too much to handle, but he knew that he shouldn't let the past have an effect on who he is anymore.

But he couldn't help it when he thought of his parents. No news about a boy running away was ever heard on the news, and no one had contacted him. A bittersweet smile crept on his face as he thought of how his parents didn't even exist to him anymore and he surely didn't exist to them. He for some reason wanted to take a look at how everything was doing back in the house.

So he simply raised his hand and asked if he could use the toilet.

As he was allowed to leave the class with a hall pass, he immediately aimed for the exit of the school. Opening the door as he let the soft breeze hit his skin.

He found the usual bus stop by the school, he found it nostalgic to be there, not because he had any specific memories, but purely because he used to spend minutes waiting on the bus.

The bus slowly pulled up and Jeongin stepped on to it, a smile crept on his face as he noticed the bus was empty. He sat on the seat he used to sit on every single day, spotting the words he and Hyunjin had wrote in the wall.."fuck the world, no one's there for you". He shook his head.

The bus stopped at a particular spot, which was where Jeongin stepped off. The house was only 2 minutes away, and a nervous feeling crept up on him as he started walking in that direction.

Once the sight of the house appeared Jeongin froze, a small tear escaping his eye. He felt adrenaline run through his body as he sprinted towards the house, nostalgia hit him hard as memories passed by him.

He reached the house safely, a small even smile crept on his face. He walked up to the front door as he turned the doorknob, pulling it open silently, as he stepped in.

A sudden rush of nostalgia hit him again, but harder this time. Euphoria spread through his body as everything looked the exact same.

He couldn't help but to run up to his room, busting the door open as a tear escaped his eye again.

It felt extremely weird but he continued to step in further. Sitting on the leather couch he used to sleep on. He glanced at the closet in the order side of the room, a smile crept on his face as he saw the various of different types of clothes that was still there.

He laid back on the couch as he grabbed the black bag that he knew was filled with drugs and ciggerated. The fridge in the side of his room contained alcohol.

He felt his phone vibrate so he looked at the message.

Chan♡
Jeongin where are you? Hyunjin told me you were supposed to be in school now..it lunch time and you never returned to class. Hyunjin can't find you anywhere on the school.
Sent 12:21 pm.
Seen.

Incoming call from "Chan♡".
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I'll let you be the judge in this one.