Addiction

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Silly girl...with silly boys.
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"Oh my-" another familiar voice exclaimed, and Jeongin felt himself perk up just hearing that voice.

He was embraced into a warm, familiar hug. As he continued drowning away in the persons embrace.

The other man stepped aside. Leaving the room to let the two of them settled down.

Soft cries was heard from Jeongin as he didn't dare to unwrap his arms around the person.

"P-pls stay" Jeongin muttered out as he buried his face into the crook of the person's neck.

"Jeongin....why..did it affect you so much?...you were the one leaving after all..".

Jeongin cried harder at that memory...he wanted to forget about it and stay close. But he also know that he said something stupid.

"C-chan......i-i...I made a mistake...." Jeongin cried out as he held on to the older like his life depended on it.

No words nor sound other than Jeongin's cried filled the air.

All the older could do was to agree. He couldn't lie and say it was okay, cause it wasn't okay. He had cried over the younger because of the way he left. He took off 2 weeks of work to get over the younger.

"Why did you come back?" Chan spoke trying to push the younger off of him.

Sure he missed the younger. But it was just...he had gotten over him, and he was scared that the same will happen again.

"I...told you not to come here....".

"Chan pls I am so sorry for what I've said..i-i didn't mean it at all I swear....I'm an pathetic, idiotic asshold..pls.......forgive me" Jeongin muttered out as he sniffed.

He needed to calm down, but it was difficult.

Especially thinking of the fact that he was crying in someone's arms, while they tried to push him away..he wanted Chan, but Chan didn't want him and it showed.

"Pls..I know I was such a jerk, I shouldn't had yelled at you, nor ignored you..I wished i listened and if i could turn back time i swear in would prevent it all from happening....I'm such an idiot, I literally don't deserve you..why am I hanging on to something I can't have?" Jeongin asked as he looked up at Chan with teary eyes, and tears running down his face.

"Oh gods.....Jeongin I would love to turn back time..but it I can't do that....I just started moving on from you...and I'm scared that the same thing would happen again......I'm sorry-".

"No. Don't leave! I swear when I say I lost something special..Chan you like the most beautiful diamond in the whole world...you're nice, caring, and sweet, you look like- no are a god..an addicting god to be exact" Jeongin spoke in a hurry, not wanting to hear the next few words the older had to say.

Chan's expression softened and he felt himself melt into Jeongin's words.

Was Jeongin serious or was he just playing with his feelings again?

"I can't live without you...I can't live with knowing I broke you're heart and ruined such a beautiful relationship...I turned it toxic and regret it so much...I was so fuckkng selfish and childish I couldn't even act out properly..I made a mistake that I regret to the finest".

Those words hit Chan in the chest. He did in fact miss Jeongin and his soft voice, the way he kept cuddling up to him after having sex, or the way he chewed his food.

But was it worth it? Was it worth it trying to connect the broken strings together again?

"Pls I love you to much to let you go".

Chan wiped Jeongin's tears away and smiled softly.

It did feel nice having Jeongin back in his arms.

"You drive me crazy..." Chan spoke as he caressed the younger's cheek as he hugged him tightly.

"But really, lay back down..you sick".

Jeongin did as told as he laid back against the soft mattress. Before looking up at Chan who stood up with a smile.

"I canceled a meeting for you".