Addiction

17

Pill diet, pill diet, if they give you a new pill then you will buy it.
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Jeongin laid back as he let the drugs effect him. Humming filled the air as he tapped his feet along the song that was playing. Chan wasn't the happiest knowing Jeongin would get high, he had begun caring a lot about the younger's health. But even if he tried to talk the younger into stopping it felt as if Jeongin wasn't even paying attention to him at all, he didn't spare a glance, a word, or just a small gesture indicating he was listening.

Chan constantly fought the urge to argue with the younger.

It was currently 11 PM. Chan was st work so Jeongin had the whole house to himself. He was stressed and frustrated about a lot of things. His past, school aka exams, and overall fighting his urge to gulp down an excessive amount of alcohol at once.

It wasn't easy having such addiction..especially if they are you're only coping mechanism without having to cling to someone.

He continued sucking the life out of the cigerrates and continued gulping down a few pills. He needed the feeling of being free. And despite him practically living with Chan, he still felt like he was locked up in a cage, That he was held against his own freedom. He hated that feeling.

And it didn't make it much better that Chan denied his request of needed sex.

They had gotten into a small argument, because Jeongin went to a club to get laid and drunk. But quickly made up again only because the older understood where the younger came from.

Jeongin has been keeping his distance to the older though. Leaving Chan to feel worried about the younger.

Chan noticed the smell of drugs and cigerrates in small places such as the bathroom, balcony, storage room, etc. He chose not to say anything about it, even though he probably should.

The sound of keys unlocking the door broke the peaceful silence, as steps continued filling the air. Chan was home.

A heavy sigh was heard behind the younger, who chose not to turn around and spare a glance at the older.

"Jeongin.." Chan voice appeared behind him. But only silence came in response.

"Jeongin..we've talked about this...".

Silence.

"Pls stop ignoring me...I know our little argument have been affecting you.....pls talk to me".

Yet again..silence.

Another heavy sigh came from Chan as he tapped the younger on the shoulder.

"Jeongin talk to me-".

"Shut up" Jeongin spoke. Immediately going quiet after that.

The amount of times Chan had tried communicating with the younger has been bottling up inside of him, stressing him out due to the lack of communication.

"It would be nice if you would speak more politely" Chan exclaimed.

Silence.

"Yeah no. Jeongin get up..like right now. Let's get you showered then eat some food, and then time for bed" Chan spoke rather dominantly, knowing it usually had an effect on on the younger, but his words when through one of his ears and out the other.

He was loosing his patience.

"Stop ignoring me! What have I done wrong? I'm tired of continuously cleaning up after you have been high or drunk, I'm tired of having to see you come hom late at night not knowing where you have been! I'm so sick and tired of ignoring me! Just fucking pay attention to me!" Chan spoke raising his voice at the end. Jeongin just shrugged.

"Not my problem".

Chan stood dumbfounded, holding his hand in a fist due to frustration.

"Jeongi-".

"Shut up! Fucking let me be okay? If you don't want me to smoke or get then just fucking kick me out! You don't need to take care of me! I'm fine like this, so leave me be!" Jeongin yelled as he threw his remaining cigarettes of the balcony.

"You get mad at me for trying to help you?! Jeongin stop acting like a goddamn child! You're 17, get you're shit together!" Chan yelled back.

"Oh fucking shut up! You're getting more and more annoying each second I'm here with you!".

"How am I not supposed to be mad at you when all you do is to lay around like you own the world, getting high, drunk, and even smoke in my fucking apartment?! Not to mention the few times you went out early and came back late while being fucking drunk! If you don't want me to help then leave!" Chan yelled as he turned his heel to leave, but a pair of words leaving Jeongin's mouth made him stuck dead in his tracks.

"You're nothing but a fling anyways! I'm going to Hyunjin's place" Jeongin spoke as he pushed Chan out of the way, and began packing random stuff that either belonged to him or didn't.

Chan stood there hurt..confused and mad. The thought of the younger using him to feel better lingered to him, and he felt his anger built up.

"You were just using me?! Are you an idiot or what?! I fucking let you live in my house, borrow my clothes and I let you in closer to me, just for you to say I'm just a fling?!" Chan yelled as he punched the wall, making the younger flinch.

Jeongin regretted saying that, and he didn't mean it at all. He felt stupid, useless and stressed out. He just ruined everything.

He stood still watching the older's already red face. He felt bad, really bad. But he felt angry too and he needed to get it out, and he didn't want Chan to be a victim of that.

His mind was cloudy as he was still high and he wasn't sober yet.

"I'm calling Hyunjin to tell him to pick me up".

Those last few words once again left Chan dumbfounded. he was being used by Jeongin?!

"I don't wanna see you ever again. Don't you dare go near me, my apartment nor work place anymore".

With that he left the apartment slamming the door behind him which cause a loud slam to echo through out the apartment.

Jeongin felt tears fall from his eyes as he continued calling Hyunjin to come pick him up.

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"Shh Jeongin it's alright" Hyunjin comforted the broken boy on his chest, as he ran his hand through the younger's hair, trying to comfort him and put him at ease.

Jeongin shook his head, crying more just the thought of his ruined relationship with Chan.

"I'm an asshole and a jerk! I told him he was just a fling. A-and then pushed him" the younger cried out, wetting the older's grey shirt even more.

Seungmin sat down beside them as he continued to place down a cup of water to help ease the younger.

He had heard everything Jeongin had told Hyunjin, and he felt extremely sorry for the younger.

"I know....his hopefully understanding enough to understand that you were in a bad state at the time.." Hyunjin replied but only received a loud cry in return.

"H-he told me to never go near him again" the younger spoke as he unsuccessful wiped his tears away.

Seungmin and Hyunjin looked st esch other before nodding, knowing each other's thought.

"Maybe it'll be best if you forgot about him" Seungmin spoke earning a nod in agreement from Hyunjin.

"I-i don't wa-".

"I know, but sometimes when relationships fail, itll be best to forget about the other person.." Hyunjin spoke.

Jeongin thought for a second or two, before breaking out in a loud cry.

Maybe they were right.

Maybe it'll be best to just forget about Chan.