Addiction

21

You're favorite candy cotton, that's why all you're teeth are rotten.
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Jeongin felt himself squirm around as he groaned loudly due to the immense pain in his head. He felt sick and nauseous.

Cold sweat made his bangs stick to his forehead as the throbbing pain didn't make it much more comfortable. He managed to open his eyes, not even thinking about looking at his surroundings.

All he could focus on was the miserable pain in his head, and the urge to suddenly throw up.

Everything seemed to be spinning, eyes wandering around the bedroom trying to identify the said place.

When he felt slightly better he decided to stand up. Which was a mistake. He felt to the ground with shaky legs as he noticed his clothes were changed.

Did he sleep woth someone?

A small knock came from where Jeongin assumed was the door. A figure standing there holding was seemed like a glass of water.

Everything was blurry. He wasn't able to identify the man infront of him, nor his features.

Jeongin threw his head back closing his eyes as he let out a low groan.

The silence crept in as only intense panting from Jeongin was heard through the room.

And once again, he felt the urge to throw up. He felt sick and tired due to being out in the rain. He didn't even know where he was. All he remembered was breaking down infront of the private apartment complex, only to be bothered by a security guard, after that he simply blacked out cold.

"Jeongin....." a rather familiar voice called out. Jeongin had difficulties with processing where he had heard it from..

But most importantly...how did the person know his name?

"..lay back down you're sick....." the same voice appeared again, bit this time he felt a pair of arms wrap around his body helping him to lay back down on the soft mattress.

Jeongin could only squirm. All he wanted was to be with Chan, curled up in his embrace while the older was working. It was all that mattered to him right now.

"N-no.." Jeongin muttered out with a small stutter as he continued squirming around.

"I-i want C-chan" he once again managed to mutter out as soft tears fell from his eyes.

Only silence was heard as Jeongin calmed down, the man never left the broken boy. All Jeongin needed and wanted was Chan, and he was determined to face him.

"Chan..." the man spoke again, breaking the peaceful silence as only small cries was heard from the younger once he called put Chan's name.

"Don't worry...he'll be home soon".

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"You're such a disgrace, maybe you just deserve to die. I regret giving birth to you!" The mother yelled at the 4 year old child, before pushing him across the room.

Only cries from the kid was heard as his mother continuously hit him.

"You deserve to die. Fucking die. I hate you, you're the reason we never get along!" His mother yelled as she smashed the child head hard into the wall.

The child ended up in the hospital for 3 weeks. His dad never paid for his hospital bills and almost went to jail for that.

And of course the child never spoke to his mother again. He despised her and didn't dare to even look her in the face.

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"It's all my fault" Jeongin cried out as he continued to break down in front of the man, not caring if the man was judging him or not.

All the man could do was to listen to the self degrading. Wanting to block his ears so badly, he had never seen anyone speak like that to themselves before.

For him it was horrifying. Seeing how Jeongin continuously yelled and screamed that he wanted to die, or that it was all his fault. and even worse, tried to hurt himself.

And he didn't dare leave the boy alone, not in that state of mind.

"Sir....pls calm down, I'm gonna call someone and they'll be here as quick as possible" the man spoke as he went a bit further away, to decrease the sound of crying and screaming.

All Jeongin could do was to continue crying, yelling things at himself. He couldn't take it anymore. Life wasn't meant for him anyways, it was time to finally give up. He was worthless after all.

The man came back and held him in place, knowing Jeongin's intentions.

"Pls calm down..." the man practically begged not knowing what was best for the younger. He just wanted Chan back....as soon as possible.

"FUCKING LET ME DIE!- I'm worthless anyways!" Jeongin screamed, wanting to get away. He didn't want to be held down, he wanted to just jump out one of the windows and face death in the eye.

He believed that, that was what he deserved.