Addiction

11

Just another shift at the drug company.
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"Hyunjin why do you have marks on you're neck?!" Seungmin practically yelled as he pulled the older's shoulder, making him turn around.

Hyunjin stood there shocked at the younger's sudden appearance.

"Eh?! Why? Who gave you these hickeys?!!" He yelled again taking the older by surprise.

"I'm sorry, but me and Jeongin-".

"Him again? Why do you always choose him?! His such an idiot! Just let him be. You could've have asked me!".

Hyunjin felt anger rise in him as the younger kept muttering nonsense about Jeongin, calling him names.

"Okay what if I slept with Jeongin? What about it? We're not fully together! You're just an attention seeking fling. You're not special! Sure i like you, but I love Jeongin, his my soulmate! And if you can't accept that then fucking get out of my life!" Hyunjin muttered as he pulled out his finally earbud he had in.

Tears filled Seungmin's eyes at the harsh words spoken to him, letting them fall as he clenched his fists.

"I fucking allowed you to take my virginity, my first kiss! I let you use me as a stuffed animal after you almost fucked me till death! I let you in my house, in my bed, and in my fucking heart, thinking that we would be something in the future! I love you, and you still go around fucking that bitch! You never give me painkillers when my fucking ass hurted after you basically ripped me apart! You call him you're soulmate, you're love, and I'm just someone you like?!" Seungmin cried out as he just wanted to punch the older across the face for how stupid he was being.

"Seungmin i-".

"Don't fucking talk to me" with that the younger turned his heel and left Hyunjin standing dumbfounded, hurt, and confused.

.........

"Jeongin pls for the love of gods pick something to eat!" Hyunjin practically  begged as he lifted his head up from the table, only to spot the younger still scanning through the menu.

"Sush! Let me have my time!" Jeongin scolded which turned into a shared laughter between them.

Seungmin kept his head low as he wanted to break his friend's neck for bringing him along to this cafè.

His friend thought it would a good idea to get him out a bit, only to get some more fresh air, to forget about Hyunjin. But now there they were in uncomfortable silence as they listened to the two boys talking and laughing together. He hated how they sounded and looked like a couple.

He glared at his friend Felix before taking the last bite out of his chocolate cake, giving him the middle finger in the process.

"That's offensive you know" Felix spoke as he acted like he got hurt.

"Shut up Australian cock sucker" Seungmin replied as he growled at him.

"Jeongin I swear I'll stick this fucking fork up you're ass if you don't decide now" Hyunjin whined and groaned as he laid his head down on the table again, mumbling "I'm hungry" in the process.

Seungmin was always jaelous of Jeongin, and it wasn't because he had a certain dislike for the boy, he just didn't like his relationship with Hyunjin. Ever since he met Hyunjin he was sure that he would spend a good amount of his life with him. he trusted him, maybe a bit to much..he wanted to make up with Hyunjin but he was scared he'd get his hear broken by another person. He didn't want to go through that pain again.

"OkAy Pasta it is!" Jeongun exclaimed happily closing the menu and smiled at Hyunjin.

Seungmin watched how they both interacted, he just wanted to be in Jeongin's place.

Ever since he spotted him and Hyunjin hanging together, he had started feeling jaelous and insecure about himself. He always wanted to be like the Jeongin, to him Jeongin was everything he wasn't. His style, body, confidence, beauty, everything about him was perfect, and he wanted to have that perfection. He never viewed Jeongin in a bad way, he simply looked up to him but in a jaelous way.

"Have you figured out if you're going to move?" Hyunjin asked, happily chewing on the food he finally got to enjoy.

Jeongin thought for a few seconds.

"I can't just disappear, I actually need to speak to them about it".

It was true. Despite his parents not giving a damn about him, he still needed to talk to them about moving out. Sure he can disappear for 5 months but it doesn't mean his parents won't fully grow suspicious, he didn't know if they still cared a bit about him.

"Don't worry. Jeongin remember I love you okay? If you need a place to stay you can tell me" Hyunjin spoke and grabbed Jeongin's hand, showing full support to Jeongin.

"Jeongin I have something to ask you-".

A loud sound of a door being slammed roamed through the cafè as gasp filled the air once they noticed the broken glass door. Both Jeongin and Hyunjin were shocked and surprised as they both gasped too.

"Oh wow...somebody must have gotten dumped or something.." Hyunjin muttered out and Jeongin couldn't help but to laugh.

"Come let's leave" Hyunjin spoke again as he placed a good 50 bucks on the table before leaving together with Jeongin.

......

"Seungmin please talk to me! Why are ignoring me?" Hyunjin spoke as he sat beside Seungmin.

He turned around and fiddled with his phone instead of focusing on Hyunjin, giving him the cold shoulder.

"Seungmin I'm really sorry, no like legit. I got angry and defensive, I know I deserve to be pushed out of you're life, but I can't leave or be pushed away once I know you're okay. You seem so hurt and you keep staring at me and- you know his not important right now...I know I messed up, and I also know we both have been feeling down because of it. Pls just tell me what's one you're mind" Hyunjin spoke calmly as he tried communicating with the younger who seemed to be ignoring his previous attempt.

A heavy sigh came out of the younger's mouth as a glare was sent towards Hyunjin direction.

"Why do you prefer Jeongin over me? I get his perfect, he has everything, a good body, a good friend, a good sense of style, his handsome and pretty, he has the best life, I want his life, I want to be him! I'm so jaelous, I wanna be hugged an taken care off like him!" Seungmin complained in response, turning away once his eyes filled with tears.

Hyunjin stared in surprise. Sure he thought he might be hurt over his relationship with Jeongin...but jaelous?

"Jeongin is not perfect..theres a reason I got defensive over him once you shit talked him....I've known Jeongin since we were infants, we grew up as neighbors and friends. Our parents weren't the best, mine was abusive and so was Jeongin's. We found peace in each other and had created a special bond. I get you're jaelous over Jeongin, but he isn't that perfect guy you think he is. Jeongin still struggle getting out of his home, he constantly get drunk and high or you know do the dirty..that's why I'm taking extra care of him...I have been the only person in his life to take care of him, to give him affection, and to lecture and educate him. Seungmin, you're fine just the way you are".

Seungmin listened closely, tears falling from his eyes. He looked towards Hyunjin only to spot him staring.

"I-i didn't know that....." Seungmin replied wiping his tears always as he sniffed.

"No one other than me and Chan, well now you, knows. He doesn't open up stuff like this" Hyunjin smiled as he placed a hand on the younger shoulder. Grinning wider once the younger didn't push him away.

"Chan?"