Addiction

5

His still dead, when you're, done with the bottle.
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Jeongin sighed as he slammed his door shut, as he practically threw himself on the black leather couch. Feeling the pretty, cold surface of the said couch against his skin was oddly satisfying, as he slipped out a low moan in response to the said feeling.

It was relatively quiet today or well so he thought. He groaned out in annoyance once the younger began hearing faint, raising voices, mentally preparing himself to hear another argument. He pulled a plastic bag, fiddling around as he finally grabbed a familiar pill bottle. Four pills, he swallowed them all at once, wanting the effects of the drugs to kick in.

He really gave no fucks about the high chances of him almost overdosing, the pills felt almost as good as sex. He was in the mood to get drunk and intake drugs, as he continued to be the idiotic drug addict he had become.

Maybe he might call up Hyunjin, or maybe even Chan..but Jeongin wanted his and Chan's relationship to involve more than just sex, he wanted to actually give him a chance, he oddly wanted to cut down on the sex with the older.

So his natural instinct would be to just hit up Hyunjin, his parents probably won't even notice it's Hyunjin, they don't even notice their own son. But Jeongin really wasn't in the mood to get laid, his own thoughts continued to bother him as he closed his eyes after turning on the loud music.

He successfully blocked out his parents fighting and yelling, as he continued to bop his head fo the music. feeling a smile creep on his face once he thought of the older, and his relationship with him.

Despite them showing obvious signs to each other, both him and Jeongin wanted to atleast wait for a good amount of times, before committing into anything other than sex.

And it wouldn't hurt for Jeongin to maybe try out dating. maybe it'll change his perspective a bit, maybe he'll learn to love, maybe he would finally receive that love and affection he's been missing his whole life. It wouldn't hurt...right?

The thoughts of being lovely kissed by the older, or being snuggled into Chan's embrace while inhaling his cologne, was enough for the younger to finally realize..he might actually miss Chan.

Was the older really affecting Jeongin so much, even when they just said goodbye? Why was the younger so attached. He really just longed for Chan's attention. So he couldn't help but to scroll through his phone, as he found Chan's contact, sending him a sweet goodnight text, hoping he'll wake up to sweet, loving goodmorning texts from Chan.

......

"Why are you already hitting me up again? I thought you were going to settle down for awhile" Chan spoke as he continues hugging the younger boy who attached his arms around the older's neck. Jeongin still didn't respond, after Chan had tried starting small conversations with the boy, finding it difficult understanding what or why Jeongin was standing at his front door, despite saying they're goodbyes yesterday days ago.

"I just want to be by you..I need affection, and I thought that maybe..you're in for a good cuddling session" the younger finally responded as he continued to cling on to Chan.

"If course I'm in for cuddling..but I have video meeting soon, it's gonna last for awhile-".

"Can't you just let me cuddle you while in the meeting, pls I need it" Jeongin spoke interrupting the older who seemed to be thinking once Jeongin finished his sentence. It was in fact important for Jeongin to feel Chan's comfort, to be up close to him, and he wouldn't mind just clinging to him, he just wanted the older.

"Fine, but why aren't you feeling well? What happened?" Chan asked slightly concerned as he lifted the younger, as he carried the said person into the bedroom, laying down with the younger on top.

Jeongin thought for a good while, he tried to find a pretty reasonable reason as to why he longed for the older's attention.

"I....I was just feeling down, I can become quite gloomy at times...and you know, I just needed comfort" Jeongin responded, but was to busy inhaling the older's cologne as he felt like day dreaming.

In fact, Chan felt like the perfect drug to overdose on. The older in general was a whole drug, he was both attractive on the outside, and the inside, making him hard to resist. Jeongin couldn't help but to mumbled out some tiny words that made the older concerned.

"They'll never stop fighting".

This simple sentence made Chan worry, he noticed how the younger was only half conscious, making the older slightly worried about what the younger may have on his mind. Chan was a naturally skeptical, which didn't really mix well with Jeongin's trust issues. But he was already willing to give in everything for the younger.

"Who's fighting? Did someone hurt you?" Chan asked as he sir up against the headboard, allowing the younger to sit upright.

Jeongin himself regretted letting those words spill. But he expected it to happen some day, just not today, he wasn't ready to talk about his family. Everytime he dared to try and open up it would feel like knifes stabbing wholes into his body.

"I'm...sorry, what?".

"Jeongin....why did you really come here today, you know other than cuddles......what happened after Hyunjin dropped you off at you're house?" Chan spoke trying to speak as carefully as he could, he didn't want to force it out of the younger, but the younger had to open up someday.

Jeongin just spaced out for a good few minutes before breaking into a calm laughter. Jeongin didn't sleep the whole night, and was instead busy taking and smoking different kind of drugs. He was still slightly high, but thankfully went unnoticed by the older.

"Jeongin..pls tell me if there's something going on....why are you always trying to change the subject whenever we get to talk about you're emotional and mental state?" Jeongin's expression immediately cha ge at Chan's words, feeling overwhelmed and anxious about even thinking about opening up.

"I just don't think you ready to hear about my family issues-".

"Wait what?!".