Colin Firth - will he save me?

and suddenly you're dead...

"I know. He's got your eyes." "But how can that be? I thought Gery is the father". "Colin, I was so mad at you for showing up so suddenly. I know it was shoddy of me, but I wanted to hurt you. I wanted you to think it was from him. But then Matteo told me how much you are suffering and when I went into labor I just wanted you to be with me. Unfortunately, the little rascal was in a great hurry, but I'm very happy that you are here now. I'm sorry. " Colin is still staring at his son, in complete disbelief that this little boy is really his. "He's so beautiful. I don't even know what to say."

"How about you help me find a name for him? I thought of David." "David - like my father?" I smile at Colin, I never stopped loving him. Secretly, I always hoped that our son would bring us together again. "David would be wonderful." "Nice, then that would be resolved. Would you like to hold him sometime?" Colin picks up his little son, he rocks him gently back and forth, he smiles all over his face. I've never seen him so happy. After a while he looks at me "How are you? I would have loved to be with you, even before that, I was such an idiot that I let it get this far."

"Let's talk about it another time, I want to enjoy the moment with you two." Matteo and Matilda snuck out of the room a while ago to get drinks and something to eat. The two of them were great and took care of me until we were in the hospital. Both almost burst with pride, Matilda is no longer an only child and Matteo is now a real big brother. "What about Gery?" Colin pulls me out of my thoughts. "Gery? I always told you that there was nothing between us." "But you looked so familiar, I really thought he liked you." "We are like brother and sister, always have been. Nothing will change that. I only wanted you!" Colin squeezes my hand and gives me a tender kiss on the forehead. "And what about Livia now?" "Well, I think little David here changes everything. I want to be there for you, to be with you. It won't be easy, but I hope she accepts that I have to change my life. That I want to change my life . I want to be with you. I love you, I've always loved you and I will always love you. "

"Uuuuaaggghhh, ok, now that you've confessed your love to each other, can you please stop this sentimentalism? That's disgusting." Matteo laughs when he rebukes us for sharing our affection and takes his little brother out of his father's arms. "Well, you little guy, I can't wait to tear up girls with you!" Matilda gently punched him on the shoulder. "Of course not, he'll be a gentleman one day." Colin and I both laugh, he brushes a strand from my face and lets his hand rest on my cheek. "I love you so much, I never want to lose you again. But now you should rest, you look very tired my darling." I follow Colin with my eyes as he goes to my little family, how he hugs my daughter, smiles overjoyed at his son and our son. A few hours ago I would never have thought that it would end this way, that the man I love more than anything will be with me, that he tells me that he loves me and wants to be with me.

I've never been so happy as I am now, I would love to hold onto this feeling forever.I notice how I'm getting more and more tired, I can barely keep my eyes open. The last few hours have been so exhausting. The days, weeks and months before that were very tough on me. God knows how much I've suffered from all of this. Inside, I feel excruciating pain. But I'm too tired to say anything, I open my eyes one last time and see Matteo, Matilda, David and Colin - my Colin. I love him so much.

When I close my eyes there is a white light. It seems so warm and draws me to it. Then suddenly I see Paul. Paul stands in front of me, smiles at me and waves me over. How can that be, Paul is dead? I'm so incredibly tired and don't want to think about it, I just want to sleep.

I try to open my eyes again but it doesn't work. Suddenly there is - nothing!