Colin Firth - will he save me?

Colin or Tom - or maybe both?

"What do you think you are talking to my wife like that?" "Wow take it easy, I didn't know that she is your 'wife'? At least she doesn't wear a wedding ring, nor does she have an engagement ring, and nothing happened at all, so take it easy." Colin storms towards Tom, I'm standing between the two of them, which doesn't help, as the two effortlessly stare at each other over my head. Tom, too, has now adopted an aggressive stance. "You know Colin, I really don't understand what your problem is. If you really love her and want to have her for yourself, you should maybe ask her  to be your wife before someone else does!" "Tom, please don't do this." I try to slow it down without success. I try to get his attention, he looks me in the eye "Think about it, I'm really serious about what I said earlier - I wouldn't hesitate a second and take you as my wife, honey." "Don't you dare to call her that again!" Colin pushes me aside, grabs Tom by the shirt collar and pushes him to the wall. Even though Colin is trained, I have no doubt that Tom is physically superior. I'm scared for Colin.

I try to calm down both men, Tom makes no attempt to defend himself, but I'm not sure how long it will stay that way if Colin continues to provoke him. "Guys please stop, that doesn't make any sense. Tom, you know very well that I belong to Colin and that won't change either. So please let it be and act like sensible adults!" Tom now glares at me "You know what? I don't believe you a word, I just don't think you really want to spend your life with him. As soon as you are gone for a while, he'll return to his Livia. Don't you get it with what's going on? Or do you find it normal that he still has so much contact with his ex, even though he is with you and you have a child? Wake up, you would be the only woman in my life. There's no one you would share me with. Don't you think there is a reason he's still in contact with her? It seems like he leaves the back door open so he can come back to her anytime. I know very well that you suffer when he sees her. "

"Enough now, leave Livia out of the game!" Colin swings back and hits Tom on the chin, Tom sinks to his knees, he must have caught him in full, he looks dazed. Immediately I run to him and kneel down in front of him. "Colin are you crazy? What are you doing? Are you completely crazy now?" "I'm crazy? I'm crazy???? Did you actually listen to what the guy was saying in the last few minutes?" "Yes, I did. And I don't think that it is okay to talk to you like that, but in the end he only told the truth. Except for you and Livia, nobody really understands why you are still in such close contact. And he is also right that I don't like it. But these are facts that you have known for a long time, and even if you asked me if I want to marry you and I actually said yes a long time ago, you always managed that it never got really serious, you never really asked me seriously and you don't even have a ring for me!" Colin looks at me, the anger in his eyes disappears, first he looks at me sadly, then knowing that at some point his look will be cold and empty "Well, at least I know when it's time to go!".

Tom is still sitting on the floor. "Does it hurt a lot?" "Your lover has a pretty good right hook!" "He's not my lover - he's my friend." "Yeah whatever." "Tom, you knew we were in a relationship, why did you say all those things to him?" "Because I think he's not good for you, because I think he'll hurt you over and over again, because I believe that we both ... I think ... no I know that we'd both be perfect for each other . You are what I've always been looking for, what I've always longed for. I want to be with you. " I am touched, Tom has tears in his eyes. Thousands of thoughts flash through my head "Tom, listen, is it possible that you are in love with the idea of ​​loving me?" "I don't know, I don't know this feeling that I feel for you that way. I've never felt this way before. I can only tell you how it feels when I see you together, I wish I was by your side. I would never leave you in doubt whether you would be the only one for me. I meant every word as I said and I ask you that you at least think about it. Don't write us right away, don't dump me right away. Can you promise me that? " I look him in the eye, Tom is a special person, I can feel that. But I love Colin, even if it's difficult with him. I know it would be a lot easier with Tom, I know that, but can I just turn off my feelings for Colin? Can I choose a man I will probably never love the way I love Colin, just that my life will be calmer? I dont know. "Tom, I need time." "Take the time you need, I'll wait. Forever if I have to!" He makes it really difficult for me. I bend over to him, wipe the tears from his face and give him a tender kiss on the cheek. "

I have to go home now, take care!" Tom smiles at me, squeezes my hand again and lets me go. I believe him every single word and I also believe that he will wait for me. I know I want to be Colin's wife - the question is, do I want to wait until he's ready to take the final step?