Colin Firth - will he save me?

My darkest hours - Colin's POV

I can't believe my luck, I'm actually David's father. The more I look at him, the more clearly I see the similarity. I finally feel that I have arrived. I now know very well that I have to finally break up with Livia because I will start a new life. With her - with the love of my life. "Honey, I'm hungry - do you want something too?" I turn to her when she doesn't respond. Oh, she seems to be sleeping. The birth must have been very exhausting. But something makes me pause, something is wrong. Her head hangs on its side so strangely that you can't sleep like that. I gently shake her shoulders, but she doesn't respond. "Honey, what's wrong? You need to wake up! Can you hear me?" She doesn't respond. Panic overtakes me. "Matteo, quick. Call a doctor, something is wrong!"

I don't quite understand what the doctor is telling me, that she has internal bleeding, how can that be? She gave birth to a child and didn't have any accident! They would have to operate her immediately, there would be an acute danger to life. No, that can't be, I tell her that she has to fight, that I can't lose her, that I love her. And then she is brought to the operating room. I am left perplexed. I hear Matilda sob. Damn it, I have to take care of her. She lost her father at such a young age, she mustn't lose her mother too. God please don't let this happen, it can't end like this.

Almost endless hours go by. Every now and then a nurse comes to inform us how the operation is going. I am not aware of anything. Matilda weeps silently on my shoulder. I put an arm around her. Matteo sits on my other side and cradles David in his arms. We could be so happy, but we are not complete. When the surgery is finally over, I have little hope. The doctor explains to me that the bleeding has stopped, but that it doesn't look good. She would have lost a lot of blood and would have been very weak from the birth. The next 24 hours would be crucial. I am finally allowed to see her. She looks so vulnerable as she lies so pale in this bed. My darling, my heart, my everything. I just can't lose this woman.I don't move from her side, hold her hand, stroke her beautiful face over and over again. I don't know if she can hear or feel me, but I want to be with her. No matter how it ends, she shouldn't be alone now. The doctors and nurses sympathize with us so much that they enable us to let Matilda and Matteo spend the night here. I refuse to have my own bed. There is no way I will leave her now. I do not take my eyes off her, I monitor her every weak breath. At some point I fall asleep exhausted, my upper body rests on her bed. It is in this position that I wake up the next morning. Thank god she's still alive. She is not quite as pale anymore, but otherwise she shows no reaction. The doctor thinks we have to be patient. There was no change in the next few days either. I am told that the body often takes a long time to recover. I ask what happens if she doesn't recover. The doctor just looks at me sadly and pats me on the shoulder encouragingly.

I can't say what time it is, I can hardly pull myself up to take a shower and eat a little at all. I don't have the muse for shaving, I know she'll hate it when she wakes up. For her a 3 day beard was always ok, but everything that went about it reminded her too much of Santa Claus. I miss her so much if she would wake up again. The children give me the strength to keep going. Matilda is doing amazingly well, she has an irrepressibly positive attitude and is a firm believer that everything will be fine again. You and Matteo take care of David as best they can. I love my little boy, but my mind is only with her right now.

I must have fallen asleep again, when I wake up I'm sitting on the couch, every fiber of my body is aching now. When I look at her bed, I can't believe my eyes. She is awake. Immediately I rush to her, "Honey, finally. God, I'm so happy, you scared me so much, I'm so happy that you're awake again. You don't believe how much we hoped for it. I promise you, that everything will be fine now. I will no longer allow anything or anyone to separate us! " I cry with happiness and relief. I see that she wants to tell me something, but is still very weak, as if I put my ear to her lips "where am I?" "You are in the hospital, there were complications after the birth, but everything will be all right now. We will soon be allowed to go home with David, you will see."

She looks a little perplexed "Who is David? And who are you?"