Colin Firth - will he save me?

When all is said and done

"You did what?" Part of me still hopes I've misheard. He didn't really sleep with Livia, did he? No, this can not be. That mustn't have happened. He always said he didn't love her anymore and then he sleeps with her? Just because? Colin just looks at me. "Are you together again?" "No, it was a one-time slip. I was so angry and thought you were with him .." "With whom?" "With Gery." "What makes you think that?" "Because I saw you guys. I was here yesterday and damn it, I heard what you whispered to each other like teenagers in love. You didn't even notice me because you were so busy with each other and I walked around not having to look at your happiness any longer! " "Oh and then you go home and just fuck your ex because you think Gery and I will be together?" "Well, you apparently had fun together" "We haven't even kissed, and we were drunk, which you probably weren't, right?" I stare at him angrily.

"Listen, I was angry and Livia was there and I wanted you to feel the way I felt." "What is that about? Is that your solution for everything? When it gets difficult you run away and jump into bed with Livia?" "I know it was a mistake." "You're a miserable bastard Colin. What man deliberately hurts a woman when he says he loves her at the same time? Or was that just a lie, just like the fact that you and Livia are dead?" "I really thought you and Gery ..." "Well, then you'd better have asked before you just interpret something and get 'angry' ..." I can't believe he banged her so lightly. "And was it at least nice?" "If you want to know exactly: NO, it was terrible, I was only thinking about you the whole time." "Did she start or you?" "I." "Great, and you want me to believe anything too?" "I love you!!"

That's the moment when I see red. I rush towards him and raise my fists, he looks at me in surprise, but does not defend himself, shortly before him I pause, tears sting in my eyes and then I drum my fists on his chest. Colin allows it, I notice that he is bracing himself against me with his weight, I strike as hard as I can, throwing him all the swear words I know at him. Colin endures everything. I feel like I'm slowly running out of strength, but I'm still so incredibly angry with him. Hot tears run down my cheeks. I open my fists and hit him hesitantly with my open hand. At some point my head falls exhausted on his chest, I sob loudly. When he tries to hug me I push his arms away "Don't touch me."

Again he tries to hug me, again I push him away, take a step back, he follows me. The game repeats until I finally lean my back against the wall. Colin stops just in front of me, looks down at me from above, he glares at me. He supports himself with his arms on the wall, his breathing is heavy, my eyes stay on his lips, I see them open slightly and sink down to mine until our mouths touch, he gently brushes his lips over mine , he sticks his tongue into my mouth, explores everything. I return his kiss, it doesn't take long before the gentle kiss gets very wild, Colin loosens his lips from mine and bites my neck, not gently but firmly, I twitch briefly in pain, but I enjoy wandering his hands from my back to my bum, he squeezes it between his hands. "You hit me." "Yes." "Don't you think now is the time I punished you for it?"

I can't say anything, I'm a little scared of him, I've never seen him like this before. On the other hand, his dominance excites me, I can no longer think, I just want to let it happen. I nod to Colin. He reacts immediately and picks me up, I wrap my legs around his hips. He carelessly carries me into the bedroom and throws me on the bed. I dare not move, he still has that wild look. "Colin, you won't hurt me, will you?" "Be quiet!" Colin is slowly undressing me. He looks me in the eye all the time. When I finally lie naked in front of him, he spreads my legs, without warning he inserts a finger into me. I shiver under his touch, he grabs my chest with his other hand, takes my nipple between his thumb and forefinger and pulls it gently, my body bends, again and again he bites into my neck, leaving small bite marks. He takes my nipple in his mouth and bites gently. He's still penetrating me with his finger. He pushes his finger into me faster and faster and pulls it out again. 

When he finally disappears with his head between my legs, it's all over to me, I press my hip against him, his tongue circles around my clitoris, he sucks on it, thrusts into me with his tongue, he knows my body inside out and knows exactly what he has to do for me to come. And that's what I finally do, I'm still in the middle of orgasm when he lifts my legs and pokes me hard. Colin fucks me so intensely that I am sure to get an orgasm again, he looks at me and knows exactly what has happened. Suddenly he withdraws from me. "What are you doing, why are you stopping?" "Because it can't go on like this. It can't be that our relationship only works in bed."

 "Colin ..." I grab his cock, want to pull it to me, want to have it inside of me again. " "No - stop it. Not like that. " " Please," I beg him. After nothing comes from Colin, I touch myself. Colin tries to look away, but he doesn't succeed, his eyes glaze over, his eyes get caught between my legs. He watches me, I notice that he too is beginning to satisfy himself, that excites me even more. After we both had an orgasm, we lie next to each other, exhausted. Colin caresses my cheek "do you really want to marry me after all that has happened?" "Do you promise me that this will never happen again, not with Livia, not with anyone?" "Of course not, do you promise me that you won't do any more drama when it comes to Livia?" I smile at him "I'll try."

We lie in bed in silence for a while. "Colin, do you think that will work with both of us?" "I firmly believe if we both work on it and finally learn to trust each other." With the wish that there will finally be a happy ending for us, I fall asleep in his arms. In the distance I can still hear Colin saying "I love you more than is good for me."