Colin Firth - will he save me?

Colin - again..

It's been 2 weeks since I last saw Colin. 2 weeks in which I was angry with him, 2 weeks in which I regretted what happened between us, 2 weeks in which I missed him terribly. Could it be that you feel so drawn to someone even though you hardly know them? I found myself google his name regularly because I would like to read something from him. At the same time, I feel afraid that it says somewhere that he has reconciled with his ex-wife. I decide that this has to end, it wasn't meant to be. Even if there are always moments when I regret throwing his number away - what should I tell him? How am I supposed to fight a relationship he had with his wife for over 2 decades. We hardly know each other and if in doubt he would probably prefer her over and over again. It's probably just better when we really don't see each other anymore, even if it amazingly hurts a lot just thinking about it.

The days go by without anything worth mentioning happening. I spend most of the time looking through scripts, there are a few very good ones, but nothing has really convinced me so far, I don't want to commit myself to very complex projects that would mean several months of shooting at the same time. At first, completely lost in my thoughts, I don't even notice that my cell phone is vibrating and signaling me a call. My agent Peter, he probably wants to know if I've already decided on one of the scripts. But it is something completely different that he suggests to me: "You were asked for a perfume advertisement. I thought I would ask you if you like it. After all, you've never done anything like that before, have you? It would only be three days of shooting here in London. Gucci is bringing out a new fragrance for women and men and would like to cast two actors. You are their first choice. " "Oh cool. Yeah that sounds great. Do you have any idea who will do the male part?" "Unfortunately that is not yet certain - they want to wait for your approval and then decide. As far as I am informed, there should be a few hot scenes in the spot, which means that they are definitely looking for a guy who also suits you optically," explains Peter laughing.

"Haha you prankster! When do they want to start?" "As soon as they have your co-star's acceptance at the beginning of next week, I'll get in touch until then: don't do anything I wouldn't do." Peter would actually be the perfect man for me, he's been managing me for 10 years now and has become a close friend. But unfortunately he's not into me at all - on the contrary, he often envies me for my work with my male co-stars.

The rest of the week goes by in a flash, I've already repressed the shooting for the commercial, I received the information from Peter that shooting actually starts on Monday - in two days, but what can be difficult, one to find scent beguiling on a man? At least until I got the text message from Peter who was supposed to play by my side, I thought. "Honey, you won't believe it, Colin Firth has agreed and is dying to shoot with you. He said he can't wait. God what I'm jealous. You have the chance to kiss THE Mr. Darcy. " Damn what now? I wanted to avoid him and then he just says yes? What is he actually imagining? Ok, stay calm. Maybe I should prepare for the shoot after all. 

"A man watches a woman as she walks through the ballroom. He follows her slowly, she returns his gaze. They move as if in slow motion. She is moving towards the stairs, wanting to go one floor down to the toilets. He follows her shortly as she reaches the last step, he grabs her hand. She turns around and looks up at him. He presses her against the wall, propping himself up against the wall with one hand and gently stroking with the other her face, he tilts his lips to hers and kisses her tenderly. She returns his kiss and opens her mouth slightly. The two sink into a passionate kiss - end of the first scene. 

"Oh no - that can't be true. The memory of his touch gives me a shiver. We didn't just split up on good terms and now I should make out with him in front of the camera?I don't think I'll survive this.