Saudade [Choi Yeonjun]

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3rd person's POV

Y/n jerked awake from her terrible nightmare her, heart pounding at an inhumane pace as she wiped away the tears on the cheek with the flick of her thumb.

Y/n could feel her fingers trembling knowing she was about to get another anxiety attack, she stumbled out of bed and almost fell but balanced herself out again. She reached her desk and rummaged through her drawers finally finding the bottle of pills that she wanted. She staggered back to her bed, placed the pill in her mouth and gulped down the water.

"Y/n are you sick?" Yeonjun asked from behind her but y/n froze. Nobody was supposed to know about this in the first place.

"K-kinda."

Y/n heard shuffling and saw Yeonjun walking to her side of the bed where she was seated and crouching down in front of her.

"Tell me what exactly is happening y/n." Yeonjun said. Besides being scared of opening up y/n couldn't help but look at Yeonjun's face which illuminated by the yellow night light his eyes as deep as ever compelling her to spill out everything.

Yeonjun's eyes fell to the side noticing the pill bottle. He reached for it and read the name and the other things written on the back.

"Anxiety?"

Y/n pulled on the loose threads of her pajamas top not wanting to answer.

"Look at me when I'm talking princess." He says his voice husky.

Y/n locked eyes with him still not having the courage to speak.

"You should've told me earlier." Yeonjun says his eyes soft and comforting. I-i was scared." She admits.

"You don't have to be. We're all here to protect you." Yeonjun says holding both y/n hands in his larger one.

"You don't hate me?" Y/n mumbled.

"I don't think anyone could ever." He replied endearingly making y/n's heart soar.

"I have a little depression too." Y/n continued just wanted to see that emotion of hate and disgust on his face but it never came.

"I knew all of this you know?" Yeonjun says with a small grin. Y/n's eyes widened. "You did?" He nodded.

"Whatever disease or disorder you get nothing will ever make me hate you." He says placing his palm on her cheek chuckling when he saw y/n's eyes watering.

"You're crying?" He said wiping away her tears with his sleeve. "A softie at heart aren't you." He says teasingly making the girl playfully hit his shoulder.

"Now come on let's go back to sleep. Your medicine needs to work." He says pulling the blanket over y/n and going back to his side.

Y/n tossed to the other side facing Yeonjun as she just stared into his eyes able to see her own reflection. She could see all the pain and hurt hidden beneath that strong exterior and she wanted to help him.

But she couldn't if she herself needed help.

Y/n eyes closed but Yeonjun's remained open looking out for y/n.

"I'm scared." Y/n muttered. Yeonjun looked at her inquisitively. "Of what?" He asks gently as if if he would say one harsh word, she would break.

"Everything. I feel like...."

"I'm falling."

Yeonjun nodded understandingly knowing she was talking because of the drug.

"But there's nobody to catch me." She said her tone immediately becoming sad.

"I'm right here y/n." Yeonjun says his fingers brushing away stray hair from the girls' face.

"I'll catch you when you're falling."

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"Do you think he knows we're behind this all?" The fair boy asked sitting down on a stool. "I don't think he does." The other male replied. "I just want him to see the signs what's taking him so long." He groaned.

"He'll find out don't stress about it,

Soobin."

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