Lightless Sunshine

Chapter 25

Chapter 25

I slowly opened my eyes and stared at the ceiling. My vision was blurry and I felt a little bit dizzy. My heart was racing faster than the usual. Bead of sweats were dripping out from my body. I was trembling hardly.

“Ah, fuck…”

Naramdaman ko ang paghaplos ng magaspang na kamay sa aking pisngi. Naiiyak ako at gustong sumigaw ngunit hindi ko magawa.

“You’re so beautiful, Sunshine…” someone whispered near my ear as its callous hand found its way to my naked breast and gave it a painful squeeze.

Walang lakas na umiyak ako. I felt so disgusted and dirty. Hindi na ako nanlaban pa at tila’y nawala na sa aking sarili. Ang huli kong natandaan ay ang pagyakap sa akin ni Mama.

Things were still blurry to me.

Sa muling pagkurap ng aking mga mata ay nakita ko ang dalawang walang buhay na tao na nakahandusay sa aking harapan.

Nanginginig akong gumapang papalapit doon. Hindi ko sila makilala. There was a knife stabbed in the man’s chest. Lumapit ako roon at hinawakan ang kutsilyo. Nahirapan ako sa pagbunot niyon kaya pumatong ako sa katawan ng lalaki.

I suddenly gasped and my eyes widened when I recognized his face. Napaatras ako at hindi sinasadyang masagi ang katawan ni Mama.

“M-mama?” tawag ko at lumapit sa kaniya. “Mama?” mahinang pukaw ko sa kaniyang atensyon. But she remained sleeping.

“M-mama… uwi na tayo…” umiiyak kong saad at hinawakan ang kaniyang kamay. “Mama, natatakot na ako. Please, gising ka na… Uwi na tayo, Mama…” Nilukob sa takot ang dibdib ko.

I clutched my chest and shook my head as tears started to build up in the corner of my eyes. Napaatras ako. “‘M-ma…” I whispered weakly.

I tried to lift my hand up but I couldn’t move my muscles all of a sudden. I panicked and tried to move again but no avail. It seemed like I was trapped in an invisible cell without oxygen in it. I was panting so hard, trying to catch my breath.

No! Please, Mama! Mama!

My heart was tugging so loud I could hear it literally. Nagsimula na akong kapusin ng hininga. Bumaling-baling ang ulo ko at gusto kong sumigaw ngunit parang may pumipigil sa akin.

“Hey, wake up…” Someone tapped my cheek which made me open my eyes. I parted my lips to catch my own breath.

White painted walls, syringe smell, and a familiar face welcomed me. Isha worriedly wiped my tears on my cheek. “Shh… it’s okay, Sunshine. It’s okay.”

Napahikbi ako at umiling. “M-mama…” I called.

“It’s okay, Sunshine. It’s okay. Ate is here, hmm? Ate is here…” She kissed my forehead. “Kuya, can you call the doctor, please?” malumanay niyang sabi.

“Okay.” Travis quietly left the room and closed the door.

Bumaling ako kay Isha. Why am I here?

It was as if she understood my questioning stare, she smiled sadly. “We rushed you here at the hospital. D-dinugo ka…”

Napatigagal ako at nanlamig ang buong katawan. Sumikip ang dibdib ko at kusang bumuhos muli ang panibagong luha sa aking mga mata.

“W-what happened to my b-baby?” I asked, stammering. She looked away.

“Isha! Anong nangyari sa anak ko?!” I hissed. Kumalabog nang malakas ang dibdib ko. Still, she didn’t answer me.