Lightless Sunshine

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

Sa totoo lang, gusto kong manakit ngayon. I felt the rage inside me upon hearing the word ‘whore.’ My mother has never been a whore. She’s a good role model to me. Kahit kailan ay hindi ko nakita si Mama na naging bastos sa kapwa. At sa sarili pa kaya niya? She might have done something wrong in the past but that doesn’t mean she’s no longer a good mother. Yes, anak ako sa labas. She was once a mistress but she changed.

Really, people tend to judge a person just because of his mistakes. Because that’s what they see and what they believe. Dahil sa isang kamalian lang, nakalilimutan na nila ang mga kabutihan ng mga ito. They wouldn’t validate all the good things you did once they found a wrong in you.

Honestly speaking, I had no other intention when I approached her. I had no motives. I didn’t even bother to tell her we’re sisters ‘cause I don’t wanna cause harm. Especially because she’s young. I know how fragile a child’s heart is. But things went chaos.

I didn’t expect she would do such thing; to hurt me with those insulting words, I didn’t expect it truthfully. But I know she only did that because she got carried away by her emotions. Once she get back in her right mind, she’ll realize what she’d done.

Tinalikuran ko si Quinn na umiiyak at galit na galit sa akin. Umakyat ako sa kwarto na inilaan sa akin ni Helios. Narito na rin ang ilan sa mga gamit ko, siguro ay pinakuha niya ito sa bahay namin. Naligo muna ako bago ko binuksan ang cellphone na kaka-full charged lang. I dialled my younger brother’s number. Nalaman ko na doon siya natulog sa bahay nila Tita nang mawala ako. He was staying with them when I wasn’t around. Nagpaalam ako kay Helios na lalabas at pupuntahan ang kapatid ko.

“You’re not welcome here.”

Napahinto ako sa paglalakad nang marinig ang boses ni Trisha. I know she was pertaining to me, wala naman kasing ibang tao rito sa sala kun’di kaming dalawa lang. Hindi ko iyon pinansin at nagpatuloy sa paglabas ng bahay.

So what if I am not welcome here? I am your father’s daughter. We have the same blood. We have the same father. We must have the same things our dad could give. You were even lucky because I am only sharing this house… You have our father’s heart and I don’t.

I smiled bitterly and headed towards the exit. Sumakay ako ng taxi at nagpahatid sa bahay ng tiyahin ko.

Nakita ko si Seth sa sala at tamad na nakasandal dito habang nanonood ng TV. He’s wearing his round eyeglasses. Bagsak sa kaniyang noo ang maitim na buhok na sa tingin ko’y kinakailangan nang gupitan. Napailing ako nang maisip na pinabayaan ko na ang kapatid ko.

Walang emosyon ang kaniyang mukha at nakakrus ang mga braso sa dibdib. Katabi niya ay ang pinsan namin na si Aciel na nag-mo-mobile legends, panay ang mura at sigaw nito.

Lumapit ako. “Seth…” I softly uttered his name.

He slowly turned his head on me and I watched how his brown eyes softened. He flashed a small smile and stood up to hug me. “Sunshine.” His voice was kind of baritone. Halatang nagbibinata na talaga. He’s even taller than me right now.

“How have you been? I’m sorry for leaving you, Seth.” I touched his cheek using my hand.

He sighed and held my hand on his cheek and brought it on his lips to kiss the back of it. “I’m okay.”

Napatango ako at huminga nang malalim. “Where’s Tita?” tanong ko.

“Nasa kusina, Araw,” sagot ni Aciel na naglalaro pa rin.

“Thanks.”

Pumasok ako sa kusina at nadatnan si Tita na naghuhugas ng mga pinagkainan. I hugged her from the back which made her startled.