Chapter 33
“I love you…” he whispered for the ninth time. Honestly speaking, I lost the count, too. He kept on murmuring sweet nothings to me while brushing my hair through his long fingers.
I cannot believe what just happened between the two of us. All I know was we were just kissing each other’s lip and savouring each body’s sweetness ‘til we were lost in oblivion and found ourselves stripping and panting as we landed on the soft mattress of my bed.
I was lost for words. Tears were streaming down my cheeks. Mabilis akong humiwalay sa yakap niya at kinulong ang kaniyang mukha sa aking mga palad.
“Y-you’re saying the truth?” I stammered when I asked.
Mabilis at walang pag-aalinlangan siyang tumango sa akin bago hinawakan din ang aking mukha at pinunasan ang luha ko.
“I am.” Dinilaan niya ang kaniyang labi bago ito kinagat at pinakawalan nang siya’y ngumiti.
Mas lalo akong napaiyak at niyakap ang kaniyang batok. “H-how so?”
“I wouldn’t wait that long for nothing, My Light. Even though the chances of having you back are low, I took the risk. I am more than willing to wait for a lifetime if it’s you.”
“Oh, Icarus…”
“I’m sorry for what I have done in the past, Sunshine. I’m sorry for abandoning you. I’m sorry for being a coward. I’m sorry for being a jerk. I’m so sorry for hurting you. I’m so sorry for making you feel less worthy. I’m sorry for not being a good friend back then. I’m sorry for not being a good father to our unborn child. I’m sorry for not being a good man to the both of you. I’m sorry for k-killing our angel. I’m sorry f-for p-pushing you away when you needed me the most. I’m sorry—“
“Stop saying sorry, Icarus.”
“B-but… But still, I am very sorry.” Napayuko siya at napapikit. “If I hadn’t just… just been a coward, things might have changed now… We could’ve had our own family now… K-kung ‘di dahil sa kagaguhan ko at sa pagiging duwag, buhay pa siguro ang sana ay magiging anak n-natin…” Pumiyok ang kaniyang boses at nagmulat ng mga mata. “If… If I just didn’t do what I have done, you wouldn’t have to suffer and taste the spit of hell.”
Sumiksik ako sa kaniyang leeg at humikbi. “I still haven’t forgiven you, Icarus, but… will you help me? Are you willing to help me to forgive you? Will you still love me even though you know for the fact that I don’t feel the same?”
“I don’t need anything in return, My Light. Loving you is more than enough…” He rubbed my back, trying to soothe me.
Suminghot ako. “I don’t think I would be able to forgive you first.”
“Hmm, why?”
“Kasi feeling ko, mas mauuna pa akong ma-in love sa ‘yo kaysa ang patawarin ka.”
We both chuckled for that.
“But you know what, Icarus… To tell you honestly, it feels so good when I’m in your arms,” I said and hugged him tighter.
Nagulat ako nang bigla niya akong binuhat ngunit kalaunan ay napangiti na lang ako at pinulupot ang mga binti sa tiyan niya.
“This one feels more comfortable,” sabi niya.
“Hmm…” I hummed and closed my eyes as my head rested on his shoulder, facing his neck.
“Icarus?” I called all of a sudden after the long pause of silence.
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Lightless Sunshine
Teen Fiction[Complete] ** Please, please, please, read at your own risk. This story contains very disturbing scenes and topics.
