school project (marcus baker x reader)

15

Walking through the the street brought back so much. So many times I thought it would never end, but everything has to end at one point I guess.

Monday 8:00am

Everyone looked at me different when I entered the school this time, almost as if they felt bad. I think people noticed i was not okay, my eyes were red and my body was a tiny bit smaller then before, my clothes were kinda old.

I didn't have much motivation to do the normal things in life like eat, drink, change. It would take to much energy and effort to sort my life out right now.

There he was, Marcus. He didn't look so good, similar to me but worse. I looked at him for a moment wondering what I should have done. What he wanted, and why it was over. Marcus tilted his face towards me and then back to his locker.

10:30pm

I got my laptop and sat it on the end of my bed, near my window. I wanted to sleep forever, because when I sleep I can't feel anything. When I sleep I'm just there, no sadness, no pain, no nothing.

Marcus was still on my mind, along with all the questions I have for him. I need him, sexually, mentaly, physicaly. I need him in every way I used to have him.

He probably feels the way I do, or at least I hope he does. There's nothing worse then feeling like I lost him.

I opened my laptop and went through my pictures. I had made a slide that I was gonna show him on our anniversary with every picture we've ever taken together.

I scrolled passed them, not bothered. Until I reached one of the pictures on the slide. It was a picture we had taken the first time we snuck out together.

I covered my mouth and let in a shakey breath. Tears rolled down my face. I missed him so badly. I let out a cry and covered my mouth with more pressure. My breath released with a rushed sigh.