𝑶𝒖𝒓 𝑶𝒏𝒆 𝑫𝒂𝒚 | ✔

Chapter 57

*Jay's POV*

"10-1. Emergency. This is 50-21 George. I need an ambo to my location ASAP!" Erin was in my arms and was no longer responsive.
"Copy that. 50-21 George. The ambulance is five minutes out." Dispatch answered me but I did barely hear it.
"Come back." I was bent over Erin and sobbing.
"Jay?" Quick steps approached from behind and it was Upton.
I did totally ignore her and just kept stroking Erin's cheek.
"Jay the ambo is here you need to step back." Hailey pulled me away from Erin and the tears were still streaming down my face.
"I'll drive you." I stumbled after my partner because my eyes were still on the ambo where Erin was being taken away with.
"The faster you get in, the faster we can go." Hailey waited until I had the car door closed and then drove off with screeching tires and siren.
"Jay!" As soon as we entered Med I ran up to the imtensive care unit because I was sure Erin was there.
I ran down the hall and found her in a room surrounded by doctors, but my brother stopped me before I could open the door.
"You can't go in there, man. You just can't." Will grabbed my arm so I couldn't move anymore.
I had shown him the tactic once and it bothered me that he was now using it against me.
"But why not?" I turned my head so I could look at Erin.
"The doctors aren't ready yet. We have yet to find out what she took so we can treat it." Will put a hand on my shoulder and I let myself slide onto the floor.
"She's gonna be fine, Jay." Will tried to encourage me but it didn't help.
"We both know how many people die of overdose here in Chicago and everywhere every day. Stop lying to me, Will." My brother nodded and then Natalie came out of Erin's room.
"Jay? Can we talk?" Natalie looked at me and I could tell she was worried.

*Erin's POV*

When I opened my eyes it was almost fully dark in the room I was in.
The last thing I could remember was taking the pills and everything was blurry after that.
I had vague memories of a conversation with Jay, but I guess my brain just made that up to comfort me.
A hand was placed on my arm and I screamed, assuming it was Matt.
The night nurse came in immediately but meanwhile I found out who it was.
"Sorry. I just had a nightmare." I told her and then the door was closed again.
"Didn't mean to scare you." Jay was now at a distance from me.
"I just thought you were... someone else." I didn't feel like telling him about what happened right now.
"C...could you... hold me... for a little while?" I didn't know what Jay was thinking of me, whether he still wanted me after I ran away, after I left him with our daughter.
"Of course." He came to me immediately and put his arms around me tightly.
As soon as I was in his embrace I started to tremble.
I could finally let go of all the fear and despair I felt because I knew, or at least hoped, that he would just be there for me.
"Are you crying?" My voice was a whisper, but I noticed Jay trying straight away to suppress it.
"Sorry." Jay wiped the tears from his face and I pressed closer to him because I didn't want him to stop touching me.
"I'm not going anywhere." Jay had noticed my struggle.
"I'm glad you don't because I don't know what I would do without you." I didn't know if he really wanted to be with me or if he was just pretending.

*Jay's POV*

Erin was in my arms, still trembling. I was pretty sure I knew who Erin was thinking of when I touched her, but she didn't seem ready to talk about it yet, and I said nothing.
Natalie had done a rape kit just to be on the safe side and discovered that Erin had most likely been raped.
It broke my heart to think about what had happened to her anf that it was my fault for not taking better care of her.
"Er?" I looked down at her when I managed to stop crying.
"Yes?" She had her head on my chest and was holding onto me as if I could help her.
"I'm so sorry for letting it get this far. I should have been there for you and not arguing with you when you were already feeling bad." I stroked her hair so my hands wouldn't shake.
"It's not on you. It was just the most obvious thing for me to go to Bunny because I knew that she would give me something to make me feel better." Tears were glittering in her eyes.
"Do you still want to go back to her?" I couldn't stand loosing her again and I didn't knew if she would be fine going back to Bunny one more time.
To my relief she shook her head.
"There is something I need to tell you." As Erin said the words she started to shake more and I held her until she calmed down a bit.
"Can you promise me not to get mad?" She looked at me almost fearfully.
"Of course. Take your time and then tell me when you're ready. I'll just listen." She nodded, then took a deep breath before telling me.
"Bunny and I went to this guy's place. I think his name was Matt. At first I thought he was just a friend of my mother's, but he gave me something to drink that I couldn't fight back after drinking it. Then he... he..." Tears ran down Erin's cheeks and she held on to me tighter.
"Jay he raped me." I had known it already, but hearing her telling me it made me angry.
Not angry on her, of course.
Erin couldn't help it.
But on Matt or whatever that son of a bitch was called.
"It's gonna be fine, baby. Everything is gonna be fine. I got you." I held Erin until she stopped shaking.
"Can you tell me where this guy lives?" Erin looked up at me and I saw that she knew what I was thinking.
"Jay don't. He's not worth it." She squeezed my arm, but I was determined.
"Can you tell me where this prick lives?" Erin nodded and then gave me a description on how to get to his place.
"Please be careful." I knew Erin was scared, but I couldn't let the guy get away with it.
"I'll take Voight and the team with me." I smiled at her and then left.
I definitely didn't take the others with me.
"Hey guys. Erin is fine but asleep so just let her rest a little and go home. She thanks you all for being here and is happy when she can see you later." With that I had just prevented anyone from going up to her and ruining my plan.
"Alright. Then let's head back to the district." Voight and the team left.
I waited a few minutes so they wouldn't see me leaving.
I drove to the address and then saw Bunny's Honda parked in the driveway where Erin had told me it was her new car.
"Chicago PD." I whispered and then kicked the door in.
A guy was in the living room and I was pretty sure that it was this Matt guy.
"Pull it out and I'll shoot you right away." The man had one hand behind his back, but when he saw that I had my gun pointed at him he lifted both his hands up.
"Alright man. No need to get nasty. Who are you anyways?" I wasn't wearing a vest or a badge.
"I'm the guy whose wife you shouldn't have touched." I put him on the floor and put my foot on his head.
"Ouh yes, the little blonde. She is a waste on you." He smiled at me and I turned him over and then kicked him between the legs with a swing, which made him groan.
He tried to get up, obviously in pain, but I left him in that position.
"Nobody hurts my girl and gets away with it." The smile was gone from Matt's face, but he kept looking behind me until I turned around and saw Bunny standing there, whom I had completely forgotten.
"Pull that trigger and I'll put your here friend across the room." I held Matt in front of me like a kind of protective shield because I didn't have a vest on.
"Ouh feel free to do that. He's just a pesky cockroach anyway." Bunny moved her finger, shot past Matt and hit my right chest.
Immediately my shirt turned dark red and I fell to the floor.
"Guess that's goodbye then, Jay." Bunny and Matt left me, I didn't know if they thought I was dead or if they assumed I was bleeding out here anyway.
I pressed the spot where the bullet had hit me, causing me incredible pain, but at least that way I stayed conscious.
As good as my plan was to come here alone, now nobody knew where I was except Erin and she assumed the team was with me so she wouldn't show up here any time soon.
Just like everyone else.
So I was alone and would bleed out, slowly.
I felt my eyes start to close and after a while I gave in to the feeling as it felt so much easier and I had no hope of salvation anyway so why not just go ahead and get it over with.
My hand slipped off my chest and everything went black.