Growing up dominating the household, Diamond Alvaro finds no solution rather than get away to reduce the pressure she's having around her mother, leaving her sister all behind.
If only she was as mighty and smart as everyone paints her to be, she wo...
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"How are you feeling right now?" The woman I was sitting across from asked me, she was a lot more relaxed than I was.
I took the time to examine my sentiments and exhaled deep enough to make me feel more grounded than the last five seconds. Searching for the right answer to that question has always been tough for me but not this time. I came here after gathering my thoughts and realizing how messy my mind was.
"I'm... I'm very tired..." I was hesitant but was encouraged when she gently smiled at me as she nodded her head, telling me that it was all right.
"Why are you tired?"
I chuckled before shrugging my shoulders and looking at my feet. "I never really rest, I think. Ever since I was a little girl, I always aimed to be the best so that my Mom could be proud of me and I did a great job at being at the top... And I made my Mom think that I am naturally gifted when the truth is I need to sacrifice eating and sleeping on time to get it..."
"I didn't even know what Lili wants to be, what her passion is; what made her feel happy... I, I didn't even know she was suffering until I saw her with her arms and legs bleeding like hell..."
Humikbi 'ko at pinunasan ang aking pisngi na basang-basa na pala dahil sa mga luhang nag uunahang tumulo rito pero nang mapagtanto na malabo iyong matuyo ay isinubsob ko 'agad ang mukha ko sa magkabila kong palad. Wala na akong kailangan pang itago.
"Suffering from what? Can you give me some more details about that, Diamond?" she said.
"She was clinically diagnosed with depression and anxiety, Doc... Lili—she attempted to kill herself a lot of times and that's because of me. She suffered alone because I was never been with he—r..."
"Kaya ka kumuha ka ng kursong psychology?"
Upon hearing her question, I swallowed hard and bit my trembling lip to stop it. I bounced my head with a slightly hesitant grin present on my face.
"Y-Yeah. I thought that maybe if I study it, I will learn more about her illness and I will be able to help her somehow." I gulped.
"I see... How about your mother? Does she still pressure you when you go to college?" I could hear the interest in her voice, she was leaning forward.
"It got worsts. She became more controlling, and more selfish... Then she began finding a way to guilt-trip--- even blackmail me! That's the reason I fled our home, you know? But it feels like she knows how to make everything work her way..."
Nang idilat ko ang aking mata, doon ko nakita na basang-basa na pala ng luha ang suot kong trouser dahilan para ikuyom ko ang magkabila kong kamao. Tanging mahihinang paghikbi ko ang pumuno sa buong silid.
