No Looking Back {Book Two}

10

I was in my bedroom just sitting at the desk when I saw Judith standing outside pointing the gun at someone. I grabbed my gun after putting my robe on then went outside. I was beside her and I turned my head and saw Negan out of his cell.

"What are you doing out of your cell Negan?" I asked.

"It was unlocked and I walked out and I was going to leave." He told me.

"Why? There's nothing out there for you. Everything you had is gone." I said.

"I want to see it for myself." He said. I know I should put him back in the cell but maybe it's best that he sees there's nothing for him out there. I just hope he'll come back.

"Alright. But people are going to be out there looking for you when they find out you escaped. Me and Judith will act like we didn't know you left." I said. "And me or Judith might shoot at you. I gave you a warning. And be careful, you don't know who you'll run into out there." I said. He nodded his head and escaped. "Come on Judith. Let's go back inside." I said, grabbing her hand.

Later, a group was out looking for Negan. Me and Judith were part of the group and we walked on the road and heard a motorcycle approaching. We looked and saw Negan. Judith lifted her gun up and aimed then shot at him and he fell off the motorcycle and rolled into the ditch.

"Good shot Judith." I said. We walked to the ditch and Judith was still aiming at him while I just stood there.

"There's a whole lot of people out here looking for you." Judith said. "My mom told you there was nothing out there for you." She said.

"She sure as shit did." He said.

"Language! I'm a kid asshole!" Judith shouted.

"Yes you are." Negan said.

"Watch your mouth Judith." I said.

"Sorry mom." She said.

"But what can I say? I like to swear in front of my friends. People who know some shit." Negan said.

"Coming back to Alexandria?" I asked.

"Yep. Cell and all." He said.

"Why?" Judith asked.

"Because your mom's right. I got a good look outside my cell and there is nothing out here for me. Not anymore, so you go back." He said.

"Then what?" Judith asked.

"I'll let you know when I know." He said.

"Okay. Come on, you're walking back with us. But I will have to tie you up with this rope right here in my hand." I said.

"Alright." He said. I went behind him and tied his wrists together and we started walking back to Alexandria. I pulled my walkie out and spoke.

"I got Negan and we're heading back to Alexandria. Judith is with me." I said into the walkie.

"Alright, heading back now. Meet you there." The person on the other side said.

"When I went down to your cell, the ball you were throwing at the wall was past the cell door. So being the nice person I am, I put it back on your bed." I said.

"Thanks darling." He said, looking at me. We arrived at Alexandria and saw the rest of the group already back. They grabbed Negan and dragged him back to his cell. For some reason, I feel bad that he has to go back in the cell. He was coming back after finding out what I said was true. Any other people would leave and never come back.

"Okay you three, you have to go to school." I said, after I was dressed.

"Okay mom." Judith said. The three of them then left to go to school and I took Negan his breakfast.

"Here's your food Negan." I said, giving him his food.

"Thanks darling." He said, grabbing the tray. "Did I ever tell you that you are one beautiful lady?" He said.

"If I recall, a few times before." I said. "But to be honest, I don't get tired of hearing it. Keeps my spirits up." I said.

"Then I'll continue telling you then." He said. "So, did you tell anyone that you let me escape?" He asked.

"No I didn't. I said I wouldn't and I keep my word. But let's just hope Daryl doesn't find out that I let you." I said.

"Where's your kids?" He asked.

"At school learning. They may come ask you for help with their homework later though." I said.

"I don't mind helping them." He said.

"Maddie? Are you down here?" I heard Daryl ask. He came through and saw me sitting in a chair.

"I guess I don't have to answer since you see me sitting here." I said.

"I need to talk to you." He said, looking at me.

"Alright. Bye Negan." I said, standing up.

"See ya darling." He said.

"Don't call her that." Daryl said.

"It's okay Daryl, I don't mind." I said. We both then walked outside. "Now what is it?" I asked.

"Lydia, that girl that Alpha wanted me to give back to her, I gave her back but I don't think it's going to be the last time we'll see her. Alpha said that if I give Lydia back, there won't be any trouble but I doubt that. And I want to kill all of them for what they did to you." He said.

"I want to kill them too Daryl. I know it's not like me to say something like that but I want them gone so my kids and everyone else is safe. And also to avenge Paul's death." I said. "And I..." I said, looking down.

"And you what?" He asked.

"I feel like I'm going crazy from losing everyone that I care about. If I lose one more person, I think I'm going to go full crazy and I don't want that to happen. It's like I'm going to go crazy like Shane did." I said.

"You're not going to be as crazy as Shane was, I won't let that happen and you know that. And you know we won't let anyone else get killed." He said.

"I know but I can't help but think I am going crazy. I never wanted to kill anyone before but now I want to kill all those assholes for what they did to me and for what they did to Paul. All I want is for everyone to live in peace and not fight each other. I wanted the kids to grow up without fearing that someone could get killed." I said. "I feel like a bad person for wanting to kill those assholes." I added.

"You're not a bad person Maddie, you want to keep everyone safe and sound. We all do." Daryl said. "But these people started this fight and we're going to end it." He said.

"Or die trying. What happens if they take Judith? Liam? RJ? Or all three of them? I don't want anything happening to you or them or anyone." I said, tearing up.

"We won't let anything happen to them or anyone else." He said, pulling me into his embrace. I wrapped my arms around him and cried into his shoulder.