No Looking Back {Book Two}

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(This chapter is very long. You can play the song above if you want to make it sadder. Of course you don't have to.)

I was in the bedroom at the desk, writing letters to everyone we lost on paper just like I was talking them.

Letter to Carl:

Carl, I know you're watching over all of us. You're keeping all of us safe from what we may encounter. You helped me through when we were fighting the whisperers. I thought about you and what you would want me to do and that was to continue fighting. That's what I did. And I'm still alive because of it. Because of you. I wish you were here and saw what everything looks like now. It's almost like the way you wanted it to be. We beat the Saviors and now most of them joined us. Including Negan. I owe Negan my life. He saved me when I was close to getting killed. He saved me from the whisperers. We found out that your father was alive all this time and now he's back with us. We even decided to have another child. I wish you could've met RJ. He misses you even though you were gone before he was even conceived. Liam misses you very much. So do I. So does your father. So does Judith. Everyone misses you. If there was a way to bring you back, I'll do it in a second. But sadly, I can't. Paul's gone. The whisperers killed him. They also killed Enid and Tara. I know they're up there with you and everyone else we lost. I know you're being taken care of up there. I know you're up there with your mom. I miss you so much Carl. I would do anything to hug you again. I know you're at peace and you're not suffering. I love you Carl. Always have ever since I first met you when you were just a little boy. You were my first best friend. I took care of you like you were my own flesh and blood. I'll never forget you. Until we see each other again.

Letter to Merle:

Merle, I know we weren't on good terms when you died. I regret not getting closer to you before. I hope you know that I love you and I wish you were still here with me and Daryl. I wish you could've met your nephews, you would've loved them. They know about you and they wish they could've met you but sadly they couldn't. I miss you Merle. I wish I could hug you right now but I can't because you're not here anymore. I know you're watching over me and Daryl and helping us through. The last time we talked, we fought. You died after we did. I wanted to get closer to you. You were my brother and I know you loved me. You just showed it in a different way. I knew you loved me and I know you still do. I am your little sister after all. I know you would've killed every Savior and ever Whisperer for hurting me. I won't ever forget you Merle. I remember you were there when I was born and I held onto your finger with my little hand. I know you're proud of me for how far I've come. You're proud of both me and Daryl. We will never forget you and we'll miss you. I love you Merle. Until we meet again.