A Very 80's Infatuation - manxman

1. Here I Go Again

A/N Just quickly before the story starts, here's how it will happen... Bits of lyrics that are relevant will feature sporadically in each chapter in italics. Songs mentioned will be named up here on every chapter and be featured as a video so you know what in blazes hell I'm on about. If there is more than one, they will be mentioned but I'll only pick one for the video bit, but you can youtube anything your not sure of. So without further delay, I give you my story :)

Song: Here I Go Again by Whitesnake

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I don't know where I'm going.

But I sure know where I've been...

The Old Victoria, but now I haven't a clue. It's Jessie's idea for this night out and I'm young so why not? I say young, but I'm perfectly legal and I've been doing this for years - but 22 is still a child to many a 'proper' adult.

Hanging on the promises

In songs of yesterday 

That damn woman said we'd have sooooo much fun. Meet the woman of your dreams she said. So far I had one fat old bird trying it on and a really really drunk local mistake me for his son. And we spent nearly all bleedin' night in there cuz Jessie was adamant that this guy she fancied last week was going to be there.

He wasn't.

An I've made up my mind

I ain't wasting no more time

Here I go again...

I may as well continue this onto the next place. I allowed myself to get slightly sloshed and it is still early to be going home. Apparently this new place should be crawling with a bunch of new wave and new romantics which is just up my street - although I do like some rock music too.

Now you may be wondering where on earth these lyrics are coming from (and yes it is Whitesnake). Well not to sound unusual but I like to think of my life a one big song.

I often find myself associating situations with songs and it just sort of happens in my head now without even thinking about it. Any time something is going on, up pops a song.

So this club, according to Jessie, has some great women looking for romance and wonder, no thanks to the rash of music at the moment churning on about all that twill. Myself, I don't know if I believe in love.

Tho I keep searching for an answer,

I never seem to find what I'm looking for

Sums it up perfectly. I've not met that special someone and I'm beginning to think I never will. I've not even had a whiff of something resembling love. Sure, I've been with girls but all I can say is it must be someone really amazing who is going to get my heart. It better be after all this time. I am somewhat a romantic and I would like the chance to prove it eventually.

'Cuz I know what it means

To walk along the lonely street of dreams 

Ok, we are at the club now. Imagine a large warehouse covered in neon and strobe lighting and that's where I am. Club Aquathrax. Says it over the door in big blue flashing lights but I'm surprised they even bothered with a sign for this place. I doesn't even seem fit for the rats but the sound is buzzing around me so it must be busy.

An here I go again on my own

Going down the only road I've ever known

Nope, one look inside says there isn't a girl here for me. Your typical situation in my case.

Like a drifter I was born to walk alone

Alone until I die. Well I suppose I won't know if I'm going to love someone till I actually try. I should probably talk to one of them. Not her, she looks horrible.

Nor her, couldn't take her home to your Ma and Pa.

An I've made up my mind

I ain't wasting no more time 

5 more minutes and I'll give up and stalk Jessie all night. You never know, a girl might stumble into my presence. I want to dance and have fun, not scout for somebody to annoy me for the rest of my life (or a week in my usual circumstances - a week is my limit and then I know I won't love then and they get ditched).

But here I go again

A bust. May as well go to the dance floor, which is pretty much most of this place. Everybody is enjoying themselves in here tonight. Everywhere I look, there is a budding one night stand or a blooming relationship. Black, white, fat, thin, gay, straight, short, tall - It all seems to be going on in here.

Maybe this place isn't so bad. It is worth a dance or two and as I said, I've had a few and I'm feeling pretty good, despite the lack of love.

I am trying to look out for Jessie, but the minute we got here, we split up to look around. Now I really want a dance with her and she is nowhere to be seen.

And no, it is not what you are thinking. We are like brother and sister. I just don't have any attraction to her and she is a good friend, and I know she feels the same way towards me. One awkward kiss 4 years ago when we met was all it took to clear any initial confusion.

The night I met her, I was not long 18 and going out for one of the first times. I was with a few lads and she caught all their attention - but it was me she decided to make eyes at. She was by far the best girl in the whole bar so I went for it. We got along so well but the moments our lips connected, we burst out laughing. Not for us thank-you-very-much.

But she was fun and we hung out after that. The rest is history and here we are, comfortable enough to ditch each other in an unknown club... Maybe I will go back on the prowl to fill my time until I find her.

Here I go again...