A Very 80's Infatuation - manxman

28. Got My Mind Set On You

Song: Got My Mind Set On You by George Harrison

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I got my mind set on you

I slept like a baby last night, the relief of realisation finally hitting. Jessie was ok with me and Ethan surprisingly, and was giving me the ok to go and find him and make everything alright. She wasn't thrilled that this was the way things had turned out but she could see the bigger picture and that we would both come out happy in the end.

I got my mind set on you

There was only one logical solution. I had to go and find Ethan and tell him I love him.

Its gonna take time

A whole lot of precious time

I slept at Jessie's so it was a short walk to his place. I knocked on, but there was no reply. I hadn't said who it was so it isn't like he knew to avoid the door. I peer through the letterbox and can see that all the doors are closed and there is no sign of movement.

Its gonna take patience and time, ummm

To do it, to do it, to do it, to do it, to do it,

To do it right child

I head back to Jessie's and use her phone. Maybe the noise will wake him, plus he has to answer a phone call - it could be anyone.

I now know that what I feel for Ethan is ok and that this time, he wont reject me - I hope. It's only a matter of ringing the guy. That's if he ever picks up the phone...

And this time I know it's for real

The feelings that I feel

I know in my heart that if today goes well, I could have a real shot at happiness, and I am never going to let that go - I am never going to let him go ever again. We have both been stupid and made some mistakes in handling the situation, but now's as good a time as any to put it all right and make up for past behaviour.

I know if I put my mind to it

I know that I really can do it

But where the hell is he? I give up on the third attempt to ring him - he clearly isn't in. Isn't in... Oh gosh, Josie said he was leaving! What if he has already gone? I pick up the phone again and ring her, hoping she would know.

'Josie!'

'Calm down, wheres the fire?'

'I need to find Ethan. He isn't in and you said he was leaving, where is he going?'

'Erm... I don't know. He said something about and aunt a few towns over but I have no idea where. Are you going to find him and tell him you love him?! Oh exciting! I'll leave you to it.' She hangs up before I can respond.

But it's gonna take money

A whole lotta spending money

I heard him mention an aunt before, if it's the right one, I know exactly where he is going. Now to get to the train station.

Its gonna take plenty of money

To do it right child

I can't flag down a taxi for the life of me. I am going to have to walk to a taxi rank, and hope and pray that Ethan hasn't already left the station. I've been faffing around for so long, he probably could have gone to another country by now.

I got my mind set on you

Thank the lord, a taxi is just pulling into the rank as I get there, so I hop in. 'Train station please, and make it fast.'

'Sorry mate, I ain't taking anyone else just yet. You'll have to wait for another.'

I get out, nearly cursing him but it's no use. I'll just have to sit around and wait for one.

And this time I know it's for real

The feelings that I feel

Fuck it, I'll run. The one day I want to get somewhere fast and the Gods are against me. It'll only take 10 minutes to run for it - but let's hope Ethan won't want me to speak for a while because I won't have any breath left. That's if Ethan is even there.

I know if I put my mind to it

I know that I really can do it

So I run, and run. So fast that I nearly knock an old lady down in the process, and almost run into a lamppost. I finally do trip up a curb around the corner from the station but I don't care - I'm actually here now.

I look around the entrance but that's a long shot - chances are, he'll be waiting on the platform. But to get to the platform, I need a ticket. Crap, how much did I even bring out with me? I hope it's enough.

But it's gonna take money

A whole lotta spending money

'What's the cheapest ticket I can buy? I just need to get onto the platform.' I practically shout it at the poor, unsuspecting lady.

'I can give you a single to the nearest stop for 20p.'

'Let me check my wallet.' I grab it and begin counting the coins.

'You're not trying to train hop are you? Because you can now be charged a penatly for buying the wrong ticket.' Was she serious?

'No, I need to get onto the platform to see if the person I need to declare my love to is there.' I finish counting. '25p, is that enough for 2 stops? Just incase they have already left the station and I need to travel.'

Its gonna take plenty of money

To do it right child

'Sure, I'll just stamp your ticket. And good luck!' She hands over the ticket and I run to the barriers, already scouting the area for Ethan. I hear an announcement for the next train and begin to panic. What if I am still waiting to get through the barriers when the train comes? I'll never find him then.

Its gonna take time

A whole lot of precious time

Finally through, but I can hear the train approaching in the distance. Dammit, it'll be in sight soon and everyone will rush to the edge of the platform and it'll be impossible to look for anyone.

Its gonna take patience and time, ummm

To do it, to do it, to do it, to do it, to do it,

To do it right

Realising I wasn't far off giving up (because let's face it, when I get the other end of the train journey, I have no idea where his aunt lives), I surge across the platform trying to cover as much space as possible. Nearly knocking down a group of people this time, they start to get angry and I've caused a little bit of commotion. 

And that's when everyone stops what they are doing and look towards me.

Set on you

A voice speaks out against the silence, 'Jimmy?'

Set on you