A Very 80's Infatuation - manxman

26. Don't Cry

Song: Don't Cry by Guns N Roses

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There is something in your eyes

Don't hang your head in sorrow

'We need to talk.' Best rip this off like a band-aid. Josie and Steve had gone home and now was the time to end things.

'I think we do, yes.'

'Jimmy, I'm not stupid - I can tell Josie said something to you that threw you for six. The question is what?' He goes to open his mouth but I stop him in his tracks. 'Don't answer that - I think I know. Ethan phoned me earlier and told me he was leaving town for a while and not to worry.'

And please don't cry

I know how you feel inside

Jimmy's eyes fill with tears - he knows I know. 'Nothing happened, you have to believe me.'

Did I believe him? I don't know.

I've been there before

Somethin is changin' inside you

And don't you know

'I met him before you, it was only a kiss. But we were stupid and scared and then you came along. I had no idea you knew each other.' He is choking back the tears with every word and I have to believe him.

Don't you cry tonight

I still love you baby

I go over and hug him. Even though I am hurting inside, I do see his side of things. 'Sssh. It's ok. I can see how hard you tried to stay away in the start, and I realise that was for me. I was the one that pushed you together. Is that when it started again?' I had to know.

And don't you cry tonight

He cries some more and I begin to accept his answer as yes, but he tells me otherwise. 'No. We tried hard to fight any feelings for your sake, and he couldn't accept the situation so I gave up on him. I know it was wrong whilst I was with you but I was confused and wasn't thinking straight.'

The pain in his voice is more than evident. This is it - we are over and he is in love with someone else.

Give me a kiss before you

tell me goodbye

'He came around to the idea but it was to late - I told him I wanted to be with you and make things work. I thought he was ok with it all but he couldn't cope and gave me one last chance to be with him. But I owed it to you.'

And don't you cry tonight

Don't you cry tonight

'You didn't owe me anything. But you should have said something. If I had known, I would never have let us get this far. You two mean the world to me and if it meant sacrificing my own happiness for yours, then I would have.' I meant to sound a lot more convincing than I did.

And please remember

how I felt inside now honey

'Can you forgive me? I am a royal shit and you deserve so much more.'

'I can't forgive you just now, it is all so fresh and knew. I had a feeling you were in love with someone else or where getting over someone and that's why you were reluctant - but I had no idea what the bigger picture was. Not until today.'

'I'm so sorry Jessie. What can I do?'

You gotta make it your own way

But you'll be alright now sugar

'Only you can answer that. But don't worry about me - you need to sort your own happiness out now. I had my chance and it wasn't meant to be. Don't keep fucking things up.'

You'll feel better tomorrow

Come the morning light now baby

'But what if he doesn't want me any more. I treated him even worse than I have treated you. Neither of you deserve me.'

'He is moving away because he is so broken up - that tells me he still has major feelings for you. Go and tell him that you care before it's too late. If he is still the Ethan I have known and loved these past few years, he will forgive you.'

And don't you cry tonight