A Very 80's Infatuation - manxman

16. Run To You

Song: Run To You by Bryan Adams 

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Jessie is fantastic. Now things between Ethan and I are settled, I can really be with her. None of this half-a-heart crap - I can invest in our future.

She says her love for me could never die 

But that'd change if she ever found out about you and I

So many times have I wanted to tell her about how I met Ethan, but I don't think that would be the right thing to do. She may understand, she may not and I can't risk that. It could do more harm than good and I won't do that just to make me feel better and ease my conscience. That is a selfish act.

I don't know if she realises how good a friend he has become. She knows we hang out all the time but if she realises just how much time I spend with him, especally if she finds out about our history, then she might read into it too much and worry.

When it gets too much 

I need to feel your touch 

I'm gonna run to you

Just because I see him all the time doesn't mean I still have all those feelings for him. I can love him like a brother, right? Yeh, a brother...

'Cause when the feelin's right I'm gonna run all night 

I'm gonna run to you

Honestly, I don't see him as a brother. He is my best friend and there are still some previous feelings there. It isn't easy just to forget out someone like that. I tried so hard to make it happen and was hurt so badly when I was rejected several times, I just couldn't keep doing it to myself.

He may have promised me things, and he may have genuinly changed but I won't act on it. I made it clear to him where we both stood and I must keep to it. It wouldn't be fair on either of us if I changed my mind. Or fair on Jessie.

She's got a heart of gold she'd never let me down

She really has. I owe it to her to be with her.

But you're the one that always turns me on 

You keep me comin' 'round

But I can't deny my lingering attraction to Ethan. He is the one I think of most of the time when I am alone, he is the one I go to when I need advice or help, he is the one I chose to hang out with when I get a spare moment.

I got my mind made up 

I need to feel your touch 

I'm gonna run to you

I should admit to myself I want him, but I wont - it would only spell disaster.

Yeah, I'm gonna run to you 

'Cause when the feelin's right I'm gonna stay all night 

I'm gonna run to you