Come Back To Me HONEY!

Chapter 55

JENNIE'S POV

I woke up my body's extremely sweating and shevering at the same time. I pulled the duvet to cover my whole body, I feel weak and my body is aching, everything doesn't feels right. My eyes are swollen because of crying, my throat is dry and I have a stuffy nose, great job Jennie this is what you pay for loving too much.

I picked up my phone on the side table to check the time, and got a message from Irene that they already left and I don't need to go to the office if I can't, she'll fix my schedule for me. I'm really grateful for her always covering everything for me. I'm about to reply to her when I heard the door bell rang, I think she forgot something.

I forced myself to get up even if I really felt weak. I walked towards the main door and open it, revealing the least person that I want to start my day with.

I gazed at her as she's standing in front of my door step holding a bouquet of flowers. "What are you doing here?" I said with a blank expression

"Ho-honey, let's talk please?" She said showing me her puppy eyes

I don't have much energy and strength to argue with her. I didn't respond and walked inside leaving her outside with the door open. It's better if we will talk inside I don't want to make a scene on the hall way and I felt dizzy that I want to sit down. I walked to the living room and threw myself on the couch. I heard her footstep towards my direction.

She sit on the couch across mine rubbing her hands to her thighs, she seems nervous. Silence covered us, no one is talking and minutes already had passed.

"Say whatever you want to say because I don't have the whole day to play staring and glancing game with you" I said resting my head to the back sit

"Honey let's fix this. I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you. I know it's my fault and I admit it. Please give me another chance. I can't live without you Jennie, don't leave me please" she said, while gazing at me

"Is that all?" I asked raising my brow, she just nod as a respond "Then you may leave now" I added and stand on my feet

"Honey wait" she said and grab my wrist

I pulled my hand away from her "Don't fucking touch me!" I exclaimed and face her "What do you think of me Lisa huh?! Am I a joke to you?! Do you think if you will come here with your stupid bouquet admitting that you're at fault everything will be ok and get back to normal?!" I take a deep breath "You broke me Lisa! I trusted you but look what you did to me! Look at me Lisa! I'm miserably hurting!" I can't hold it anymore I burst out crying

She approached me and hold my arms but I threw her hands away from me. I don't want her touching me, it gives me more pain and making me remember again how those hands touch every part of that bitch.

"Please honey, don't do this, i love you and you know that" she said while tears are building on the corners of her eyes

"I don't know what to believe now Lisa. What I know is I can't stand seeing you in front of me. I don't want to feel your touch anymore. Can you do me favor?" I said with my hoarse voice         "P-please," I take a deep breath before I continue "Help me forget that you happened. I don't want to see you anymore" I turned my back as I don't want her to see the tears that are about to fall down from my eyes

"No! No! Jennie! Please no! I'm begging you! I can't lose you honey please?!" she said with her raspy voice as she started to cry wrapping her arms around my hips to stop me from walking away

I can't help it but the moment I felt her body I felt my body froze and I can't move. My heart beating so fast and my eyes are in tears crying my heart out. I love her but I don't know if I can continue loving her, all I can feel now is pain. Maybe our love is not enough for us to continue and maybe this is not the right time for our love story Lisa.

"I'm sorry but I can't Lisa" I cried "You're not mine now Lisa, you already let someone else own you without me knowing it and that hurts me a lot. I told you I don't want anyone touching what's mine. I can accept anything but not this one" I cried and removed her arms around me

"Jennie please?! I'll do anything! Everything that you want me to do just don't leave me!" She said gripping on my arms kneeling in front of me. I closed my eyes as I don't want to see her begging like this, tears are continuously falling down from my eyes

"If you want me to stay here with you I'll do it. I'll not hang out without your permission. I'll let you have my social media accounts. I'll surrender to you my phone." she uttered pulling her phone out of her pocket "I'll put cctv camera on my office so that you can monitor me every time we're at work or I can work under your company instead. Jennie just tell me I'll do it just don't leave me please?!" she cried holding my hands her head bow down

"It's too late Lisa, what's done can't be undone" I removed her hands to mine "Thank you for letting me experience how to love and to be loved, though its quiet short period of time but I really appreciate it." I take a deep breath again to keep my tears from falling "Please close the door when you leave. Bye Lisa" I said and walked inside my room and heard her cry even louder. It breaks my heart seeing her like that but I am hurting too I'm falling into pieces.

I walked inside my room and leaned at the back of the door. My knees are starting to weaken which made me fall on the floor, hugging my knees my head rested on top of my knees. I thought my eyes are already tired of crying but I think I was wrong. I can't stop crying, when I heard the sound of a closing door I cried even more which is a sign that Lisa already left and we're already done.

All the happy moments and experiences that we have together will now become the memories of our past. Thank you for those months that you helped me see the beauty in everything, for giving me the strength to take risk for my happiness, for making me feel special and for loading my heart with your love. I will forever be grateful that once in my life I experience how to love again.