Come Back To Me HONEY!

Chapter 56

LISA'S POV

Fuck! What have you done Lisa?! You're such a fucking asshole son of a bitch! You're useless as fuck! Now what?! You already lose her asshole! I'm angry with myself, Jennie doesn't want me anymore. She despises me, and every time she sees me, it hurts her. Idiot, you don't deserve her! This is the price you have to pay for your stupidity!

"Give me two more shots," I said to the bartender. I'm not sure what to do or where to go after what happened earlier. I need alcohol to calm me down with my emotions, it hurts so much that the only person I wanted in my life is no longer mine.

"Ma'am I think you're already drunk" the bartender said

"Just fucking do your job and stop lecturing me!" "Now give me my drink!" I yelled and grabbed the two shots I had ordered.

"Hey, not in the mood?" said a woman working at the bar, rubbing her hands over the top of my thigh.

"Remove your fucking hands away from me! And yes I am not in the mood so stay away from me and let me enjoy my drinks!" I said that and drank the two shots, then motioned to the bartender to give me two more shots.

I'm not sure how many hours have gone, but I can already feel the effects of the alcohol on my body. As I leaned down on the table and closed my eyes to relieve the dizziness, my vision began to blur. Someone gently caressed my back, which made me feel really relaxed. I raised my head to see who was making me feel at ease, my gaze falling on her, revealing the lovely face of this woman. 

Her innocent eyes allow me to see her pure and vulnerable heart, her smiles put my heart at peace, and her lips reveal the exquisite taste of love. Because of the joy that is building inside of me, I can't help but grin, and tears begin to form in my eyes, which will soon fall to my cheeks. My tears began to fall as she flashed her most gorgeous grin. I looked at her and noticed that something was wrong with her smile; it was slowly fading away, and her beautiful face was slowly going away from me, and I felt a pain on my cheeks.

"Hey! Lisa! What the fuck! Wake Up!" Jisoo yelled and give me another hard slapped

"Agh!" My eyes are partly open as I groan from the pain of her slap.

"What the hell are you up to?! You have the audacity to drink in a bar instead of fixing your relationship with Jennie?!" I know she's enraged, I let her talk as I looked around to see where I am and I noticed that I am inside my room

"Can you tell me what happened?" I asked her as I slowly helped myself to stand by resting my elbow on the bed.

"What happened?! she exclaimed "Someone called me from a bar and said there was a woman who had passed out. You went to a bar and drank yourself to death instead of thinking about how to fix your situation with Jennie! That is precisely what happened! Really Lisa?!"

"She broke up with me and ended everything. She despises me and has even asked me to do a favor for her "I murmured, leaning against the headboard.

"What favor?" She asked and sit next to me

"To stay away from her" I muttered, massaging my nape "She can't even look at me Unnie and she won't let me touch her, maybe she's disgusted." I was in tears.

"I-i'm sorry to hear that" she said and rubbed my back to console me

"I messed up Unnie. I lose her" I wiped the tears from my eyes with the palm of my hand.

"Shhh... Two souls made for each other will always make their way to each other at the right time and place. Perhaps you and Jennie are meant to be together, but this is not the right place or time for you to be together," she added, holding my hand. "Use that time to focus on yourself, to become better and more deserving of her love," she said with a smile, and I hugged her. Jisoo is someone I'll always be grateful to since she constantly helps me see the positive side of things.

I laid in bed with a severe headache caused on by the alcohol, crying because which is exhausting. I shifted my gaze to the opposite side of the bed, which was suddenly empty of Jennie's presence. I rub the cool, silky mattress with my palms. I already miss you honey, your scent, your cat eyes that only see the beauty in me, your gummy cheeks that were highlighted every time you smiled for me, your warm body that I want to wrap in my arms after a long stressful day. 

Jennie's vision can be seen in every corner of my unit, which is now filled with emptiness. To her favorite area in the house, the kitchen, where she prepares delicious meals and feeds me and lecturing me every time I leave the kitchen counter wet and unorganized. To the shower, where we usually share the warm water in the tub to unwind after a long day, which witnesses every rejections that she's giving me when I'm asking her for a session. Every kiss and hug we exchange every day is witnessed by the living room, where she makes sure the thro pillows are neatly arranged and in their proper places. The bedroom, where we share our love and confess our feelings to one another, as well as all of our talks and decisions.

Honey, you're everywhere, and I don't know how I'll get through the day without you by my side. My eyes well up with tears as I scan every corner of my apartment for places where Jennie has left me with distinct memories. This place will never be the happiest place for me without you in it Jennie.

I love you honey, and I know you were created for me, maybe now isn't the perfect time, but I'll make sure it's still you and me in the future. I will be more deserving of your love in the future, and when that time comes, I will make certain that you will choose me in the same way that I have always chosen you.