Him & I

Chapter 14

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Christmas with mom and my sister was just like the past years. The three of us baking cookies while listening to Christmas songs. Just perfect!

But it's over now and we're driving back, to celebrate the New Year with the Garcias. I'm not really excited about this whole thing but I don't have another choice.

To be honest, I love Sophie and mrs Barbara and of course they're not the reason I'm not excited about this gathering. 

It's Kyle, he's the only problem here. Well, I guess I don't really mind spending time with him but it's what he said the last time we saw each other that scares me.

The whole me liking him thing. Yeah, I don't think I do. Truth is, I love the way his brown eyes stare into mine when he talks to me.

Or the way his black curls fall on his forehead when he sleeps, so peacefully. Or the way his touch makes me feel.

Or the way he helped me and took care of me when that guy tried to rape me at the party. Even thinking about it makes me sad and scared but I'm glad Kyle was there.

I love the way the room lights up when he smiles, he doesn't smile often but when he does... it's just different! Oh my God, I do like him.

How can I like someone without knowing that I do. But yes, thinking about it makes me realize that I do like him. It's probably just a silly crush, right? It has to be.

Whatever it is, I have to forget about it. Kyle is not the type of guy to do serious relationships with and I don't want to be one of the many girls he has 'fun' with.

I'll never understand those girls. They sleep with a guy just because his hot and they don't care about relationships either.

I don't think relationships are neccessary but I do think that if you're in a relationship with someone, then it's very important.

But Kyle has been in a relationship before, with that girl named Stacy. They probably broke up, or not? I'm not sure but that's not the point.

The point is that Kyle doesn't like me that way and he never will, so I'll just stop the feelings I have for him. Or even better, turn them off.

Maybe I should give Luca a chance? No that'd be so wrong. What am I thinking, I'd be a horrible person if I used him just to forget my feelings for Kyle. Luca is my friend and I don't want to hurt him.

This is really stressful. I'm pretty sure I've reached a new level of overthinking. I put my headphones on, I'll listen to some music so I can ease my mind.

I close my eyes and let the melody fill my ears. The drive felt long but we're finally here. I help my mom and my sister get our things from the car and we enter the house.

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December 31

It's currently 7 pm, only a few hours away before we enter the New Year.

"Another year.. another year is ending without you here. I miss you."- I say holding a picture of my dad with both my hands. I sigh as I put the picture under my pillow.

I should probably get ready now. I get up and head to the bathroom to take a shower. I take a long hot shower and when I'm done I head back to my room to get dressed.

I glance at the clock on my wall and it's now 8 pm. Woah, I really took my time there didn't I? I should hurry up now, i have to get ready before nine.

I change into my new dress. We went shopping yesterday because my mom insisted we should dress up today.

Not only it's New Year's Eve but we're also celebrating it with another family so I understand why mom is so excited and wants everything to be perfect.