The Not So Perfect Love Story

5|| A piece of truth from him

The beauty of truth: whether it is bad or good, it is liberating.

-Paulo Coelho

Truth is not for comfort – it is for liberation.It is not a medicine – it is a killer.

-Sadhguru

5|| A piece of truth from him

That night Finn and I ended up having dinner in the office itself as we were forced to work later than usual and I had to meet up with James after that. It was a little after 10 when we left the office and dropping Finn off at his place I head to the club we had decided to meet in.

It was another one of Bash's clubs and he agreed to let us use his office for this 'talking' thing that James wished to do. As soon as I got there, I was let in by the bouncer much to irritation of the people waiting in the line. I walked over straight to Joe, one of the bartenders that know me well and he called the manager of the place to take me to the office room.

When the manager arrived I went to the office to see Bash and James sitting there talking and laughing and I felt a guilty tug in my heart that reminded me I was the reason this stopped happening. It wasn't though; it was James who did not trust me even after having dated me for five years, after having known me for our entire lives.

"Heyo Lottie!" Bash's voice came jolting me out of my reverie.

"Hey Bash, howdie!" I replied as I moved towards him and hugged him. He hugged me back tightly as if making sure I wanted to do this now.

"All good, sweetheart" He smiled and I smiled back. "Well then, I will leave you guys to it. There's some whiskey and rum in the lower cabinet by the window if you guys want it, or you can call for the office help and he will bring whatever you wish for." He left throwing back a two finger salute.

I walked over to the cabinet and pulled out the whiskey and its tumbler for myself and walking back to the desk I poured it. Sitting down on the couch I looked at James to see he had narrowed his eyes at the bottle in my hand, and when he noticed me looking over he scoffed.

"You couldn't even ask me if I wanted any for courtesy sake?" He bit out.

"Isn't Bash as much your friend as mine? Take it yourself if you want it." I said back as calmly as possible.

"Char... I- I'm sorry okay, please don't be like this." He said after inhaling a deep breath.

"I can't even be me anymore, wow." I reply to his statement. He heaved another sigh and went to the cabinet and brought out another tumbler and whiskey.

"I-" he sighed again and gulped the drink down. "I'm sorry Char. I am so so sorry Char. I should have trusted you more than I did and I should have given you the chance to explain yourself even if I doubted you." He said finally.

"Since there's no way out of having this conversation, what lead you to doubting me? We were fine till the day before the day we broke up." I asked. This had bothered me a lot these four years, what happened that caused him to flip?

"The day before that awful day, when I got out of the locker room after practice, Stacy was waiting for me. She came up to me and shoved her phone towards me with pity in her eyes. I shot her a confused look and looked down at the screen to see you kissing Finn. I told her I wouldn't believe it and she said she didn't at first either, but there were more pictures and some worse than these and she felt like she should show them to me.

And the worse ones really did exist Char, you guys full on making out and stuff. Pictures that no guy should be seeing of his girl with someone else. I still refused to believe her and she said what I do is none of her business; all she was doing was letting me know something of the sort exists on the internet. That flipped my world upside down, and taking out my phone I searched on the net, and a page with these pictures popped up.

I was gonna talk to you about it but you were not there when I got back but I found Arabella instead. I asked her if she knew anything about your relationship with Finn and she said that the two of you have had some classes together and that you were gonna meet him at that diner the next day for lunch before going somewhere else. I tailed you to that diner the next, and I know I shouldn't have. Especially since you said you were going with him and were not lying to me, but I still did.

And when you I saw you hug him and place a kiss to his cheek when you met my heart broke completely. I think a part of me was always insecure about us, I always felt like you'd leave me one day because you realized that you could do better. And then that night when Bash asked you what you guys were doing and you refused to tell us, I just flipped. It didn't help that Ara did too and Bash and Mark had no idea what was going on since they hadn't seen the pictures."

I took a few breaths trying to wrap my head around all the information. I can't decide if I want to believe Stacy was 'just showing him the pictures existed' or whether she had a hand in it. I can't decide whether I really want to accept that story as the truth of our heartbreaks. And most importantly I can't decide whether I should accept his apology right now or not, seeing that it took so little for him to give up on us.

And then it sank that someone hated me and my relationship with James so much that they edited pictures of me in compromising situation and posted them for the world to see. I almost went into the spiraling questions of why me and what had I done to them, but I realized James was in love with me, as I was with him.

A person who believes themselves to be in love with someone can do stupid things; go to any lengths to get them. They are usually more in love with the idea and the profits of being in love with a certain person than actually being in love with them.

So maybe it was someone that wanted James all for themselves. Maybe it was someone who wanted me. Maybe I'll find out who it had been, maybe I won't. Who ever knows what's going to happen.

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So.... that's what happened.

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