The Not So Perfect Love Story

29|| You foolish foolish girl

And so I kissed him...

And the world fell into a spinning silence all that was heard the sound of his soul crashing on my lips.

-N. R. Hart

29|| You foolish foolish girl

"Yes Bash it does, because you can't force someone to love you. And, this way you know the answer before you talk about your feelings so the anticipation is not there." I swallowed and stood up wanting to leave and get far far away from him. "Also, it's getting late and I should be leaving. I'll, uh, see you later Bash."

I spin around, ready to break into a run but before I could take a step farther, Bash grabbed my arm and pulled me to him. I tripped on the heels and slammed into his chest making him take a couple back before he wrapped an arm around my waist steadying both of us. I tried to pull away from him but he won't let go of me.

Instead he tightened his arm pulling me closer against him and at that moment the sky above decided to let down the tears I was holding back. The cold drops fell on my bare shoulders and somehow that broke my restraint and I let the tears fall, wetting the front of his shirt where rain was yet to reach.

Bash moved his hand to my cheek, cupping my jaw and pushing it upwards forcing to meet his gaze. His stormy blue eyes resembled the clouds pouring above and I found myself sobbing harder because I knew it would be another woman, and not I, that would enjoy the comfort those eyes brought every day.

"Ari..." He breathed out, his voice breaking and filled with hurt to see me cry. I must be thanking the heavens for granting me such a great friend instead of crying like this, but for tonight I want to cry for this loss.

"Oh Ari. You foolish foolish girl." He said and I agreed with him, I was a foolish girl to think anything would happen between us.

And I was foolish for letting him get to know about it.

But how do you even hide how much in love you are with a person.

Bash cupped my jaw and moved it higher making me gaze into his eyes and he leaned in pressing a kiss to my forehead. My tears continued to escape my eyes and roll down my cheeks as my eyelids covered my eyes from seeing him this close, trying to protect me from getting hurt further.

"Ari..." I heard his voice again, it sounded desperate, but I was even more so than him and refused to open my eyes.

And then a soft sigh was heard, before something soft pressed against my lips, a slight sucking feeling pulled at my upper lip and warmth wrapped around them. My eyes snapped open and watched Bash slightly pull away and look into my eyes, waiting for me to respond in some way.

My eyes searched his, looking for something and my brain whirred as it registered to me that Bash had just kissed me and was waiting for me to do something.

Then suddenly something snapped and fell into place inside of me and I threw myself at him and kissed him. Our lips danced together, wrapping each other in warmth; sucking and licking and biting. We kissed and the tears that were left in my eyes flowed down; with happiness, washing away all fears I had.

We kissed like it was the first real breath of air after years of assisted breathing. Like the other was water and we were parched in the desert. Like the other was the first piece of land after being in the ocean for eons. We kissed like we didn't know if it was the first time or the last time we'd kiss. It was everything I'd hoped it would feel like and more.

When breathing air became a necessity we pulled away but I refused to open my eyes. If this were a dream I wanted to savour this for longer, because a reality where this doesn't exist would be heartbreaking.

"Ari, I'm here, what happened is real. If I read your signals falsely, then I'm sorry. But if not, I'd like to kiss you again." Bash's husky voice flowed through my ears like warm honey.

I didn't say anything and just pushed myself up and kissed him again. I needed to know what he said was true, that this was real and he wanted to kiss me again anyway. Bash kissed me back immediately and I swear the rush of feelings that hit me at that moment would've had me falling if not for his hold on me.

This kiss was slow and deliberate, each stroke, each lick, each brush was meant to be there at that exact moment. We kissed each other like we had all the time in the universe. Warmth spread through my body as I found peace, the doubts in my head being washed away the broken pieces of my heart finding a reason to fall back into place.

This time when we parted, we were both grinning like fools.

"Let's talk about this and make things official, huh?" He asked me with a boyish grin splitting his face.

He looked so young with that smile that it reminded me how young we really were. We were only in our mid twenties and already felt like the weight of the world rested on our shoulders. Our lives were made for the people who worked for us and making sure we had the money to pay them, feed them.

"Can I kiss you once more before we leave? Just to make sure this isn't a dream?" I asked and he laughed before nodding his head and smashing his lips on mine.