The Not So Perfect Love Story

8|| Letting my emotions flow

How you feel about certain things is valid, do not avoid your emotions but let then flow through you. Once they're recognized and accepted, they tend to not bother you anymore.

8|| Letting my emotions flow

"My parents and Amelia, do they know?" I asked.

"I think you know the answer to that sweetheart or you wouldn't question." Bash said.

I nearly had another breakdown at that thought. All these years they must have been so disappointed in me for how I turned out to be after attending the University. The caring girl who almost always seemed to know what was wrong with her loved ones was nowhere to be seen when I went there. Had she survived James wouldn't have been going through this. I can't even imagine how his parents could bring themselves to talk to me.

"Ari, no one blames you. Your father stood next to James as he was being told to learn to lean on his family, with his hand on his shoulder. The next minute he turns and says to him 'You're family boy, and we always stick with family. But you better work off your ass here and apologize to my daughter or there will be hell to pay. Nothing can ever justify hurting another person.'"

Bash finished that line with a chuckle and I choked on a laugh. Bash looked at me with a small smile and I knew he was aware of the thoughts clouding my mind. Finn then stood up thanking us for the breakfast and telling me he will take care of everything today.

Right as he left, Mia called and said she wants to hang out and that she'd be here in about half an hour. I looked at Bash with a blank face and he shrugged sheepishly. I was sure it was his idea to make sure I am not left alone for too long, so that I do not succumb to these voices in my head.

"I have work that needs to be dealt with today so I can't stay. Mia was the next best option." He said and I nodded at him letting him know I appreciated it.

He then hugged me and placed a kiss on my forehead before he left the house so I could get ready for my day with Mia. Calmed enough to be able to focus on everything else I got ready in comfortable yet fashionable clothes as a day with Mia generally entailed some strenuous adventures.

And I was right. The moment she reached my place she honked the car and once I was buckled in she stepped on the gas like it was a worm that needs to be squished. Then she stops at the beginning of a street that is every fashionista's paradise.

This woman seriously took me out shopping to get my mind off of things. And the best part? By the time the sun dipped behind the horizon I was so tired that the only things in my mind were food, water and sleep. Oh sweet sleep, the luxury.

After much convincing Mia decided to end the shopping trip and we went to a diner two streets away. The place was beautiful. It was painted warm colours like dark beiges and browns. The seats were black cushioned wooden benches and the tables were a dark brown. It looked comfortable, homey and welcoming, exactly what I needed at that moment.

We had our dinner there and the food was amazing. Paying the bill we left, Mia dropping me off at mine and thrusting all the cloth bags at me along with a takeaway bag of food from that diner. 

I gave her a questioning look and she nodded towards the door to my house and Bash stood there along with James. I looked back at Mia and she gave me an encouraging smile before driving off and I sighed turning around to face the music.

A day out with my sister was literally all I needed to calm down and let my emotions flow through me without letting them consume me. I was now at a much better place emotionally than I was in the morning and maybe this was the right time to talk with James.

I walked up to them and opened the door raising an eyebrow at Bash, wondering why he waited outside when he knows the code. Once the door is open I enter and motion those two follow as I make my way over to the kitchen. I place the takeaway bag in the counter and nod my head at it, telling them to eat while I put away the new clothes. I still needed a moment with my own self before I talk with him.

I change out of my clothes into comfy pajama shorts and Dad's old t-shirt. After freshening up I go to the kitchen I see the two finishing up their food while they stared at each other.

"Am I interrupting something?" I asked making my presence known.

"Yes, an intense game of staring between me and my lover." replied Bash.

"Very well then, may the odds forever be with you. See you later guys." I say and spin around.

"Char wait!" James' voice rang in the house followed by Bash's 'I wons'.

I turned back around and looked at him and he asked in a low voice, "Can we please talk?"

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A short chapter that reminds you to just feel.

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