For what it's worth

Chapter 40

Once Lando cleaned up the blood and put a bandage on my head we all sat and talked for a little more(Lando, Emily, Marcus Jon and I) , as we talked I got another drink to help with the pain and I cleaned Landos lip. It wasn't a big cut, just a little one on the corner of his mouth. Once I was done with his lip I took a makeup whip out of Emily's bag and started cleaning the blood that was left over from when his nose was bleeding. He didn't have any other injuries, no bruises or anything just the bust lip. After whipping the blood away we all ordered another drink for ourselves. Everyone was looking at the five of us as we sat at one of the rounded tables drinking and talking.
"dank u" (thank you) I said to Lando in Dutch again so only he could understand. It felt more private talking in Dutch with him.
"bedank me niet" (don't thank me) he said with a smile.
"I swear when they speak Dutch to each other they are defiantly talking about fucki-" Jon said but was cut off by Lando before he could finish.
"No Jon, we don't talk about fu- you know what you where going to say" Lando said also not finishing the word as everyone at the table was now looking and listening.
"niet in de keuken hoe dan ook" (not in the kitchen anyways) I say relating to our inside joke from the first time we spoke Dutch to each other. Lando spit his drink out all over the table as he heard my comment, he was laughing so much I think I could see tears forming in his eyes.
"See, that was definitely about sex, Dutch is like there love language" Jon added.

After about an hour had passed everyone finally stopped staring at us so Lando and I took the opportunity to leave without being noticed. We said goodbye to our close friends and quickly headed back to our hotel room.
I sat straight into the bed as I felt tipsy from all the alcohol I had consumed. Lando changed into shorts and a different shirt. As he washed his hands I got the first aid box out of the bedside table making sure to disinfect the cuts on his hands that I hadn't noticed until now. As he sat on the floor infront of where I was on the bed I made him bite on the corner of the blanket knowing once I put the disinfectant on his hand that it would burn. After a few moments he got used to the pain and took the blanket out of his mouth.

"You shouldn't have fought him" I say as I continue rubbing the disinfectant into his hand. "It's going to ruin your reputation in formula one for the feature, do you know how hard it's going to be to get a seat once your contract with McLaren is done" I add.
"I would much rather protect you than drive a car" he states.
"Lando it's not just about driving a car, this is your job"
"I have enough money for us both to live comfortably for the rest of our life" he states, which was true, he had literal millions but that wasn't the point.
"That's not the point lando, do you not just realized that you just ruined your whole career"
"And I'd do it again if it meant I was protecting you"
"You shouldn't"
"But I will, I always will, because it you before me, it will always be you before me"
"No, you need to put you and your career first, lando you have the potential to be a world champion, your the best younger driver on the grid, lando your a rookie, this is your first season and your on podiums and getting points in every race, no rookie has ever done that" I state.
"You don't get it, none of that matter to me now, I mean yes I would love to be world champion and drive in f1 until I'm in my late 30's maybe even 40's but none of that matters if I don't have you, I don't want to be a world champion if your not under the podium watching , I don't want to drive for 20 more years if your not in the garage supporting me, it's you before me, because I fucking love you, because I can't do life without you. Fuck we've been together for like three weeks and I'm already planning our future together."
"I should be mad at you right now for possibly fucking up your whole career but the shit you say makes it so hard to stay mad, and I think we can both agree, we have been together privately a lot more than three weeks, i mean officially yes three weeks but don't tell me you didn't see me as your girlfriend for the past two mounts" I say pulling my hand away from his as I'm finally done disinfecting it.
"If I had it my way I'd say I've thought of you as my girlfriend since that day you confessed your love for me in the airport car park" he smiles looking up from the floor.
"I really don't want to ruin this moment because I know it's a serious topic and we are confessing our love for eachother but eh-" lando says nervously "the dress has eh- well it's gone up" he adds raising his eyebrows as he looks at the part of my dress that is barely even covering my boob anymore.
"Well" I say pulling the material back over the naked part of my body and off of my neck, I walk towards Landos suit case and take out one of his t-shirts and put it over my now fully naked body. "Easily fixed" I add with a smile sitting back down infront of him wearing nothing but his t-shirt.
"Erm ya" he says flustered as he stands up and walks towards the bathroom again. As he walked away from me I saw him adjusting the waist of his shorts, and I knew exactly why. I could help but giggle innocently.
"Not funny" he laughed back closing the bathroom door. I laugh even more and walked towards the bathroom. I went to open the door but I couldn't because he had locked it.
"Open the door" I laugh.
"No" he pouts in a childish voice.
"Babe open the door" I say still giggling but not as much as before. With that I heard the lock on the door click and I opened the door to see a flustered Lando sitting on the edge of the bath with blushed cheeks.
"What's wrong" I ask with a smile holding back my laugh. I got an eye roll in response.
"Use your words" I say walking closer to him.
"Nothing" he blurts looking down at the ground breaking the eye contact between us. I walked closer to him again, now stood in front of him millimeters away from him.
"Come here" I say holding my arms out wide signaling for him to hug me. Instead of standing up to hug me he placed his hands on the back of my thighs and pulled me closer to his body making sure there was no space in between us, and he placed his head on my chest. With that he let out a sigh.
"Talk to me" I said as I wrapped my arms around his neck rubbing the back of his hair with one of my hands.
"About what" he said sadly.
"Why you walked away and locked yourself in the bathroom maybe"
"No reason" and with that he gently started to rub small circles on the back of my thigh with his thumb while letting out another sigh.
"Don't lie to me" I said with butterflies in my stomach from the feeling of his hand drawing circles on my almost naked body. There was a moment of silence before he took a deep breath and talked.
"I shouldn't feel like this, not now" he said in a whisper almost not loud enough for me to here.
"What do you mean?" I asked confused.
"First off, you've had a pretty shit night, so you need someone to comfort you right now and secondly we where in the middle of a serious conversation about our relationship and the way we feel towards each other, but no of course I have to ruin the whole fucking thing by getting horny." He says sounding angry at himself as he tights his grip on me making the hug more meaningful.
"That's kind of my fault, if I packed my own dress I'm fully sure my boobs would stay in it" I giggle.
"Your not mad" he says pulling his head away from my half naked chest to look up at me.
"No why would I be" I ask confused.
"Because we where kind of having an import conversation"
"I know, but that doesn't mean I'm angry at you" I say placing a short innocent kiss on his lips.
"Plus ever since Jon mentioned us having sex it's all I can think about, your not the only one" I say giggling pulling away from the kiss and attempting to walk away from him but I'm stopped as his grip on my thighs tighten.
"loop niet van me weg" (don't walk away from me) he says in a calm deep voice.
"Ohhhh Dutch" I wink at him.
"As Jon said, our love language" he smiles back at me before placing a kiss on my lips.