For what it's worth

Chapter 9

In the meeting zak gives me my timetable for the next mount. I read it and cringe at the amount of times I see Landos name on it.
-Bonding with Lando
-Interviews with lando
-Dinners with lando
-Meetings with lando
-Lando, Lando, Lando.
I take a deep breath and walk to landos room. I couldn't escape it, this was my job. My job conceited being around him 24/7. I suck up my thoughts and walk into his room.
"Got the new timetable" I say
"Ohh anything exiting for us coming up" he asks
"Well let's just focus on today and tomorrow for now" I look down at the timetable.
"Well right now you have an hour off until we do track walk, then after track walk we have a meeting with your engineers and that's it for today, but tomorrow you have the morning off until 11:00am, then you have warm up, at 12:00 starts fp1 and then at 1:00pm you have interviews until 1:30pm, and after that you are free to go until Saturday." I say looking up from the timetable smiling at him.
"So what I'm hearing is we have an hour to talk?"he asks
I want to say no and walk away but I can't keep avoiding the conversation, it's going to happen sooner or later and right now, I just want it to be over and done with.
"Well and hour off so what ever you want to do for that hour" I say
"Can we talk?"
"... ya I guess" I say nervously
"I don't really know what to say" he giggles "all week I've been preparing for this, and now that the time is here, my mind is blank. I guess I should start asking if you have put more thought into leaving?" He asks
"Well no actually I haven't, I like it here I really do I love my job, I just have moments where it seems like a lot. I don't think I have the heart to leave, I love it here, and I love the people so why would I leave."I answer
"Good, I don't want to do this without you next to me" he smiles "and I also want to know why you walked away... at the airport when you said-"-L
"Please don't repeat what I said i know what I said"I say quickly cutting him off.
"Oh... do you regret it? You seem like you regret it?" He asks
"Nope I just don't want the embarrassment hearing it all over again."I say
"But why did you leave..? You didn't give me a chance to say anything, why not" he asks again.
"I don't know, scared I guess. Knowing you don't feel the same way I didn't want to here what you had to say, being embarrassingly rejected in an airport car park doesn't sound too fun." I smile a sad smile.
"Who said I didn't feel the same?" He says in a worried tone.
"But you don't, do you?" I say in shock.
"I mean, I don't cry in every girls hotel room" he smiles.
"You cried because you..."I say confused.
"I cried because i love you more than anything I've ever felt before but you have your dream job and ruining that for you would break my heart, so I bottle all my feelings for you up and I guess seeing George hurt you and you in pain was all just too much so I broke and cried." He blurts out.
"Wait you love-" I was cut off my the door opening and Jon standing on the other side.
"Mr.Norris, you have to drink this and I have to give you a massage" Jon says throwing a bottle of protein at him.
Lando blushes and looks down.
"Jon can I say you have the best timing ever." I say getting off the bed laughing.
As I sit on the coach lando lays on the bed. It's silent until Jon talks.
"Wow you two are usually full of chat, what happened" he asks smiling.
"Your timing happened" lando says looking over at me
"Ok now I feel like I interrupted something" Jon replies
"Don't worry it wasn't anything serious" I smile at Jon.
"Nothing serious? Ok then" lando says raising his eyebrows.
"Lando. Shut up leave Jon out of this" I snap at him
"He's not involved in this, but it's fine neither are you I guess, it's not serious" he says annoyed.
"That's not what I meant and you know it. I meant we can talk about it any other time." I say in more an angry tone.
"No we can't because your going to ignore me like you've been doing all week." Lando says sitting up on the bed looking at me.
"Jon leave" he says
"Jon stay" I snap back
"Fine Jon stay I don't care, but we are talking about this. And we're doing it now." He says standing up and walking towards me.
"No lando." I say turning my head away from him as he sits In front of me.
Jon is standing awkwardly by the door on the other side of the room.
"I know how you feel, you got to shout it off the top of your lungs in a car park and run away. This isn't fair let me tell you how I feel." He says in more of a calm voice.
"Lando, we aren't alone we can't talk about this right now." I say looking at my hands avoiding eye contact with both of them.
"Fine then, I won't talk about it. But this isn't talking." He stands up grabbing my hands.
"Lando what the fuck are you doing." I laugh
"Let's go stand up, you won't let me talk to you so I'm going to demonstrate how I feel instead"-L
"No your going to hit me or something."-Y/n
"Oh fucking hell just stand up" he says grabbing my hands softly lifting me out of my seat.
"There I'm standing, now what" I say
Lando grabs my hips and leans in to kiss me slowly. Millimeters away from my lips he stops.
"This is how I feel" he whispers placing his lips on mine gently.
Jon stands at the door with his mouth open in shock. I kiss lando back just before I pull away.
"Jon you should leave" I say giggling while Landos hands are still on my hips. Holding me close to him.
"Yup and Amm, you know what, I was never hear, I heard nothing and I saw nothing. Deal." He says
"Ok Jon get the fuck out now thank you." Lando says turning his head to look at him with a smile.
Jon leaves the room and I stand in shock.
"I mean he's gone I guess if you want to talk we can talk." I say.
Lando slowly pulls me closer to his body.
"I love you" he whispers before kissing me again.