For what it's worth

Chapter 42

On Monday everyone is getting ready to board the plane. Lando and I are sitting at the gate waiting when Jon walks over.
"About last night-" he starts.
"Don't" Lando snaps cutting him off not even looking up from his phone.
"I just wanted to say I'm sorry" Jon says now looking at me and not Lando.
"It's ok" I giggle nervously.
Jon gives a soft smile and walks away, seconds later lando also gets up and walks away. I wanted to follow him but I didn't, he's been moody ever since his fight with Daniel so I decided to give him space. I go over and sit next to Emily instead.
"Good morning sunshine" I laugh at Marcus who looks like he is about to drop dead he is that tired.
"Shut up not everyone's a morning person" he rolls his eyes at me
"Morning" Emily laughs moving over to give me space to sit.
"Where's lando" she adds as I sit next to her.
"I don't know, he's in a mood ever since yesterday so I'm giving him space" I smile.
"I heard Jon came into your room last night" she laughs.
"It was so awkward, I didn't even have pants on"
"So he saw all... your ... bits" he hesitates to say it.
"No, it was Landos shirt so it was longer but still, and he said it to me, he was like "that's why you don't have pants on"" I laugh.
"I would've died from embarrassment" she giggles.
"Trust me, my heart nearly stopped beating"
Before Emily can speak Marcus clears his throat to show he is still here.
"Hungover?" I ask him.
"No" he says bluntly.
Me and Emily both start laughing knowing he definitely is hungover. Before anyone can say anything else I feel someone hands on my shoulders making me turn around.
"Come back" Lando says softly.
"What?" I say confused.
"Come with me" he smiles.
"Moody my fuck, he seems happy" Emily says.
"Shut up" Lando says bluntly to Emily.
"See what I mean" I smile at her before getting up and following Lando back to our original seats.
"Why did you leave" he asks
"Well, you left so I went to Emily." I state.
"Anyways, here" he hands me a cup of warm coffee.
"I don't like coffee" I say with an awkward smile.
"Ya I know, but" lando starts as he takes the case off his phone. "This" he says holding up a bright yellow sticky note that reads "morning after, coffee".
"Is that the sticky note from when Jon was harassing me with an ice pack" I laugh.
"Yes, you said hot drinks help the pain" he says putting the sticky note back in his phone and sitting next to me.
"Your cute" I smile taking a sip of the coffee and placing my head on his shoulders.
"Shut up" he says happily placing a kiss on my forehead.
After a few moments the everyone boards the plane and gets seat. I look around and realize Daniel isn't here.
"Where's Daniel" I ask Lando confused.
"Don't know" He says still being moody and blunt with his answers.
"Oh ok" I say kind of sad because yes Lando had been moody all morning but not with me, more with other people.
I ignore Lando most of the plane ride because he's moody and I don't want him to be angry at me. Once the seatbelt sign goes off I stand up and go towards the bathroom but see there is a seat next to Marcus who is next to Emily who is sleeping.
"Can I?" I ask him quietly not wanting to wake Emily up.
"Yea of course" he smiles.
I sit down and stay silent for a while.
"Are you ok?" Marcus asks breaking the silence.
"Yea" I smile a fake smile.
"I know you'd much rather talk to Emily right now but I'm here for you if you need to talk about something, I mean I'd probably hear it when you tell Emily anyways" he reassures me.
"Oh it's nothing really, just Lando being moody" I say.

We both just smile at each other and go back to sitting in silence. Once the plane lands and we are all waiting for our bags to come out I stand near Emily and Marcus telling Emily everything in more detail than I told Marcus.
"Why is he moody at you though? You didn't do anything did you?" She asks.
"Not that I know of anyways"
"Maybe you should just talk to him"
"I've tried, I get one worded blunt moody fucking answers"
"But he got you coffee, so he can't be that angry?" She says in a questioning tone.
"Yea, I guess I don't know" I say picking up my bag.
"Just don't overthink it, it'll be ok" she gives me a hug before we walk out.

Landos pov:
I woke up in a bad mood, knowing that I was the reason she got hurt the night before and the reason she went into a state of panic, all because of me broke my heart. She deserves everything but no, instead I break glass causing her to become hurt and then I don't even realize until 20 minutes later, when she is standing frozen in front of me, panicking with blood rolling down her face, and if that wasn't bad enough instead of comforting her and caring for her, I decided to fuck her instead.

Once we got to the airport we sat waiting to board the plane when Jon came over. He started talking but I really wasn't in the mood the listen to him so before he could finish I told him to shut up. I must admit I felt kind of bad but really at that moment in time I didn't care about anyone other than y/n. Then I remembered something about coffee the morning after because she read somewhere that it helps with the pain so I went straight to get coffee. Once I came back I saw her sitting next to Emily. I went over as calmly and loving as possible which worked considering she came back to sit with me again.

It's weird because she makes me feel things I've never felt before, like ever. Once we get on the plane I can tell she's nervous but I don't do anything because I don't want to make her more nervous than she already is. Once the plane takes off she starts to calm down and then asks me where Daniel is.
"Don't know"
Why do I have to be so moody with her, I snapped at her for no reason, and lied to her because I did know where Daniel was. He was reported by one of the engineers so in a result he was made organize his own transport home because Zak didn't want him traveling with the team.

Once she got up and walked towards Emily and Marcus I knew I fucked up. She's sensitive and takes everything to heart. She was upset and I knew it. Once we landed she ignored me and walked to the bagging area with Emily. While she was taking to Emily and Marcus I got a text. It was weird because it was a private Instagram DM.

*Fucked up mate she thinks it's her fault your angry -Marcus.

I look at the text and think about what to respond, how do I even send a response to that? 

*Is she upset? -Lando.

*She looks like she's going to cry to be honest -Marcus.

Fuck. I plan out in my head how I'm going to make it up to her. I asked her to move in with me so at least she can't just walk away from me when I try to talk to her considering we will be in the same house. We agreed that we would go home in my car and Emily would take hers because Emily didn't have a car.

I could also apologize in the car too, but that's a bad idea because I don't want to make her feel trapped. What if I get her flowers? She likes flowers, and cookies I could get some cookies. Or maybe drive her to the beach to watch the sunset? Thats like her favorite thing to do.

I'm snapped out of my thoughts as she slowly walks over and stands In front of me, like a lost child with puppy eyes. Marcus was right she looks like she's about to cry.
"Hi" she says in the softest tone I've ever heard.
"You ready" I ask back as sweetly as possible.
She doesn't answer she just nods and walks towards the door.