For what it's worth

Chapter 45

The next week and a half was spend with Lando going to the MTC for sim work and I had meetings with the press team, other than that we just stayed at home just enjoying our alone time together, and me refusing to let Lando do anything more than kissing me due to have a "baby" in the house with us. Did Lando try to convince me Kevin wasn't a baby? yes, but me being me, I just denied, not because I didn't want to have sex with a teddy in the house but because Landos reaction was a lot more entertaining to watch than I expected.
On Wednesday we where flying out to Austria for the next race. This time for some reason Lando decided to get a private plane for Him, Emily, Marcus and I. I will never understand why rich people just get private planes like it's a new bike, but I mean, I'm not paying so I'm not complaining. After packing and getting ready I was basically forced out the front door by Lando, apparently we where going to be late? Is that even possible, how are you late for your own plane?

Once we landed in Austria we all went straight to the hotel and fell asleep. Once we woke up I felt weird getting ready, knowing I had to be alone with Daniel for the first time since the fight makes my stomach drop. Once we got to track Lando reassured me that I would be fine and that he was always around if I needed him. We parted our ways as we walked through the paddock.
"Y/n" I heard Zak call me as I walked into the motor home.
"Yes" I turned around to face him.
"Can we talk please? In private" he smiled.
This was it, I was going to lose my job right here right now.
"Yea for sure" I followed him into his office.
"How are things with you and Lando?" He asked as we sat down.
"Ya, good" I can't help but smile at the thought of lando.
"I'm glad to here that" he smiles back. "But that's not what I wanted to ask you" he adds getting more serious. "I've been told that Daniel has been bothering you in your personal life, and at McLaren all we want is for our staff to feel welcome and safe, so I'm taking you off Daniels team." He says looking me dead in my eyes.
"Oh" I let out a sigh, this was the end of my time at McLaren.
"But" he said with a hopeful voice. "Can you take pictures?" He asks.
"I mean... I guess?" I laugh confused.
"Great" he hands over a professional camera "your now an official McLaren photographer" he smiles.
"So I just take pictures?" I say confused.
"Yup" he smiles.
"Of what ...?" I ask still a little confused.
"Everything" he laughs.
"Also, nobody can know that I know about you and Lando, because technically, you both still work for McLaren and in the contact it says that you can't be with anyone in the team" he says in a less exited tone. "So maybe try and keep your relationship on the down low? You know, less Instagram pictures together, no more him fighting other boys for you, just keep it more private" He said with a smile and a sad tone.
With that I exit his office and go straight to Landos drivers room. When I walk in he isn't there so I end up just taking some pictures of the pit crew who are warming up outside his room. While waiting for him to come back I end up falling asleep again, I mean it was only 10am and after being told I had to hide our relationship again I wasn't in the best mood so technically I think it was a well deserved nap. I woke up to the muffling noise of Jon and Lando talking behind me.
"I said whisper" I heard Lando whispering in an angry tone.
"It's fine" Jon replied not whispering.
"Morning" I say in a husky and confused voice still facing away from them.
"Told you to flooring whisper" Lando said annoyed at Jon.
"Flooring?" Jon asks confused.
"She thinks the word fuck is too aggressive, so now it's floor" Lando explains as I slowly turn around to face them.
"Morning" Lando smiles at me as I drag my tired body off the coach and walk over to him.
"I lost my job" I say as I wrap my arms around his waist and burry my head into his chest. I wanted to tell him that we still shouldn't be together but right now I'm front of Jon wasn't the time.
"Why, what the fu- floor, what did you do" he says pulling me away from him so that he was now looking into my eyes with a concerned look.
"I still work here, I am now part of photography, Zak didn't want me feeling uncomfortable around Daniel so he took me off his team" I explained.
"But you still work here right?" He asks in an exited tone.
"Yep" I smile a fake smile knowing he wouldn't be as exited when he found out what else Zak had said to me.
I then explain more about how I can spend all day annoying him now because I don't ever have to be at a certain place at a certain time anymore. After talking for what seemed to be around 20 minutes Jon interrupted our conversation.
"Ok that's all really cute and I'm so happy for ye I really am but lando we came here to train your neck not have a loving conversation" he smiles.
"Who do I talk to if I want to request a new trainer?" Lando asks sarcastically.
"Your not as funny as you think" Jon rolls his eyes at Lando.
"That's my que to leave" I say pulling away from Landos hug and walking towards the door.
"geen kus?" (No kiss?) Lando asks as I walk out the door.
I sadly force my body back in the room to kiss him before finally leaving the room to go and find Emily. I needed to talk to her, I knew she'd be supportive and tell me what to do. On my way I took random pictures of anyone I saw wearing the McLaren uniform.
I found Emily and told her all about my new job and why I wasn't with Daniel anymore, I also told her that Zak said Lando and I shouldn't be public with our relationship anymore and she reassured me and let me cry on her shoulder until she had to go to an interview with Lando. While they where gone I sat in the hospitality section of the motor home with Jon as we ate lunch and talked a little, I tried my best to act normal and told my tears back. I could feel Daniels eyes burning onto me every time he passed but I did my best to ignore it, right now the least of my problems was Daniel. All my mind could think of was Lando and how he would react when I tell him that we had to keep our relationship on the down low again.

"You seems off?" Lando questioned me as he drove us back to the hotel. I was sat next to him holding onto Kevin for dear life. I wanted to break down in tears. Hiding the person you love from the world was harder than it sounded, especially when that person was Lando flooring Norris, With his millions of followers. I wanted to have a normal relationship but, my life these past few mounts have been far from normal so why was I thinking this would be normal?
"When I went to Zak office today" I started but couldn't finish as I felt my eyes starting to burn with the tears forming in them. 
"Babe what happened" lando asks confused and worried.
"He said- eh he said we had to keep our relationship more private because- because we shouldn't be together, we still both work for McLaren and the contracts still haven't changed" I explain sadly with tears streaming down my cheeks silently.
Without saying anything he interlocks our fingers and slowly rubs circles on the back of my hand with his thumb to calm me down.
"I don't care" he finally speaks after a few minutes.
"About what?" I ask whipping the last of my tears away.
"Them, or what they have to say, or the contact, I mean realistically who's going to do anything? What are they going to do?" He says suddenly having a brave front on.
"Fire Me" I laugh confused.
"I don't care, I'll still bring you to every race with me and I have enough money to support us both" he stats. I stay silent not knowing what to say.
"Can I use the f-word just this once?" He asks.
"No" I giggle.
"Fine, but I'm not flooring hiding our relationship, I don't care" he says as we park outside the hotel.
Again I don't know what to say so I just sadly smile at him.