Journey to the Beautiful Ending

C25 - No break ups

It was scorching hot but Jin Ling continued to monitor the training of the junior disciples in the training field while the elders of Jin Sect was making their own discussion in one of the secluded room in Koi Tower. They were discussing on how to overthrow their sect leader for being incompetent and shameless leader.

"I don't think that was a good idea. We know that our sect leader made a good impression in the last conference discussion."

"Elder Jin Tian, I know that your son is now having a good relationship with Jin Ling. No doubt you will be on his side."

"I always have high hopes for our sect leader. I failed from the uncle but I wanted to give Jin Ling a chance. What seems to be wrong if he choose to love a man? Moreover, that man was the Lan Sect's heir." Elder Jin Tian said, Jin Chan's father.

"Don't you want your son to seat on the throne? He could be a sect leader if you choose to be on our side."

Jin Tian stood. "You can do all you want but my decision is final. I won't do anything against the current sect leader." He said before he left them shaking their heads with disappointment.

Sizhui arrived in Lanling greeted with loathsome looks from the guards he passed by. He ignored them and proceeded to the hall to check on Jin Ling but he heard some muttering scoffed instead.

"Sizhui!"

Sizhui turned to see Jin Chan with two junior disciples following him. He saluted and asked Jin Ling's whereabouts.

"He's in the training field. Come, he'll be happy to see you."

Sizhui smiled embarassingly. He just followed Jin Chan disregarding the looks from other disciples. It was uncomfortable but knowing that Jin Ling was facing it since the rumor was spread, it would be depressing.

"A-Yuan?"

"A-Li–" Sizhui retracted from calling him in an intimate seeing the numbers of eyes who were looking at them. He saluted greeting his lover formally. "Sect Leader Jin."

Jin Ling twitched his brows but he understood the situation. He gestured Jin Chan to take over and pulled Sizhui to the fragrance hall.

"I miss you. I'm glad you were here." Jin Ling happily exclaimed.

Sizhui didn't say anything. He can see the happiness in his lover's eye but he can also see how tired he was. He pulled him to a tight hug and kiss his temple. "Are you okay?"

Jin Ling smiled and hugged back. "I'm okay. Did the rumors spread throughout Gusu?"

"Yes."

Jin Ling laughed faintly. "Those are just bunch of idiots who knows nothing. How can dare defy me just because I fell to the Lan Sect's heir?"

Sizhui broke the hug and looked at Jin Ling worriedly but the latter just smiled at reassuringly. Sizhui sighed and smiled back pulling his lover's nape for a kiss. Jin Ling kissed him back and wanted to go all out but suddenly, Sizhui stopped him from removing his sash belt.

"Why? Don't you want it?"

Sizhui closed his eyes and let out a faint breath. He calmly said, "Jin Ling, let's end this."

Jin Ling, "What? Wait, what do you mean by that?"

Sizhui, "Let's break up. I actually thought that we aren't meant for each other. It would be better–"

Jin Ling, "You're being funny. This is not a good joke.

Sizhui, "I'm not joking either."

With veins popping up, Jin Ling furiously shouted, "Lan Yuan!"

Sizhui looked down, not wanting to look in his eyes. "I'm sorry."

"After all the fucking, you'll say that in my face? Are you crazy? What are those kisses meant? We've been sticking our bodies together for how many times? I can't count how many times we fucked and you're suddenly telling me that? Were I not able to satisfy? Bullshit! Do you find me disgusting now? Tell me, Lan Yuan!"

"Jin Ling, we–"

"Stop calling me that! Was it because of those rumors? Are you worried that elders will overthrow me? The fuck! I don't care about them!"

"Sect Leader Jin, please watch your words."

Jin Ling felt like a bucket of cold water was poured to him. Sizhui was talking to him formally. After being stunned for a moment, he laughed out of anger. He laughed mockingly.

Sizhui doesn't seem surprised with his reaction. He fixed himself and saluted. "I'll take my leave now." He walked towards the door but before he could open it, he heard a threat from Jin Ling.

Jin Ling, "Once you leave this place, I'm telling you. The next time we meet, I'm gonna kill you."

There was no reaction from Sizhui. He just nodded but still went out of the chamber and left him alone. Frustrated. Jin Ling was not able to hold himself and sat on the bed. Suddenly feeling weak. He laid and let his eyes welled in tears.

"How dare you." He whispered. "How could you do this to me?"

On the other side, Sizhui was disheartened from what he did. He could not think of anything but he only know it was the right thing to do. He can hear the cries from the door but he tightened his heart. He was about to leave when he heard a familiar voice.

"Don't hurt him."

Sizhui halted and looked around to see who was talking but he found nothing. 'Who's voice is that?'

"If there's one thing I'd like to change, that's the time I broke up with him."

'That sounds like my voice. Is that my subconscious mind talking to me?' He shivered with his own thoughts.

"Do not hurt him. He will be more in pain once you leave him. So don't break up with him. Support him. Stay with him. Just love him. Always be there when he needed you. Spend time as much as possible with him. At least, he have so much happy memories to remember on."

'A-Ling.' Sizhui shook his head, feeling guilty. "I can't. I can't hurt him. A-Ling, I'm sorry."

Sizhui turned his back and opened the door of Fragrance Hall. He saw Jin Ling lying on the bed, facing the wall. He heard his sobs. He wanted to slapped himself for causing him pain. He walked towards him, laid beside him and hugged him from his back.

Jin Ling stopped from sobbing from the warm enveloped his body. "Why are you here again? Forgot to say something or you want to die now?" He asked with a hoarse voice caused by his crying.

"I'm sorry. I should not have said that." Sizhui hugged him tightly. "I'm sorry."

"Idiot."

"I am. Yes, I am." Sizhui kissed his temple and turned Jin Ling so he could face him. He wiped the tears staining his cheeks and kissed his lashes. "I'm sorry." He pulled him to his chest. He's still hearing his small sobs but Jin Ling already wrapped his hand around his waist. "I love you."

"Liar. You don't really love me."

"I love you. I love you so much."

Jin Ling move closer. "If you really love me, show me that your not disgusted of me. Kiss me. Make love with me."

Sizhui faintly smiled. "I will. I will. I love you." He pressed his lips to him. Jin Ling parted his lips so he could enter his mouth. Their tounges tangled. Their moves was fast. In a few, they are already bare naked.

The sun was still emitting rays of light but inside the Fragrance Hall, there are two bodies sharing and whispering their love to each other's ears. Hoping that the day won't end and if they could just stop the time from rotating, they already did so they could stay together forever.

"I will always love you, A-Ling."

Heavenly Realm

"Another changes happened."

"The memories of hearts was really powerful."

"Yes, it was." The lady in white combined with gold robed agreed. With determined eyes, she turned to the other lady beside her. "Its time to improve the tune of Huiyi."