Poems by Mel

✨Family✨

All my family, friends and pets I love
I don't have the guts to express my love for you
Y'all are my everything duh
I'm grateful for existing in your lives, that I gratefully do

Without a doubt you all deserve better than me
I'm useless as fuck
With time you'll see, that you never actually needed me
I know, I suck
I try, but I can't be the person you all wanted me to be

I just don't have it in me,
But know that I gave it my all, I really tried
Please don't hate me
I know, I lied
Several times
Please set yourselves free
From the awful memories and thoughts of me

I don't wanna be a burden
Never for anyone of you
I'll probably be gone in 10
All I want is for you to be happy, but without me, I really want you to be

I'll hold on to all the precious memories we've made over the years, with all of you
I'll really miss you, I hope you knew
With all my heart, I do
If I had the power, I would sew
An endless happy life just for all of you

I just can't and don't wanna imagine what I would do if I lost one of you
These feelings and thoughts, take over me every single day
I just don't believe it's fair to exist in this world without one of you

Your death, I worry too much about, what if it becomes real?
I'd rather be gone than to watch you hurt, because I'm not able to
reassure and be there for you when you need me the most
I wish I couldn't feel
Anything at all
Just don't think much about me
Please, with it deal?

I'm sorry for everything I put you through
I'm ashamed of myself, I know you all know
Just think about everything you can do
I can't believe you put up with my shit for so long wow
Without me there's a lot to do
You can continue your lives, peacefully now

Move on, smile and laugh a lot
I only wish you all the best
Obviously without me you'll be better off
When I'm gone you can all chill and rest!

I'll never forget any of you,
I need to remember you all, wherever I go next, I hope it's awful and painful as hell. Punishment and pain is what I deserve after all, please worry not! I'll be fine

I love you all so damn much with my whole fucking stupid heart

Love, Mel...

- Mel Rose