Poems by Mel

✨Trapped!✨

Here I am, completely trapped
Not able to see family or friends
Don't have my fucking useless life mapped
Nothing makes sense

Purposely trapping me in one of my nightmares
Forcing me to retrieve all the unforgettable memories
How is this supposed to help?
I wonder with pure anxiety and fear
They say this is for the best
I'm so sorry to say this, but you should go and fuck yourself
I apologize, my anger I cannot control
These feelings terrifies me and so does being alive in this huge wide dumbass world

Not able to see forward at all
Too much guilt and shit for being alive
My thoughts flying rapidly back and forth like a ping pong ball
Deep within me, I warn you not to scuba dive

Whatever you say,
I'm sorry to say that you won't be able to convince me that life gets better with time
No purpose at all, talking to me
Don't waste your time, cause it'll be just like talking to a non responsive fucking wall
I'm so very sorry

As you read this poem, you might think it's utterly ridiculous
But this is the truth I no longer want to hide
Lately been too much uncontrollably spontaneous
After all, I nearly and almost died

- Mel Rose