Poems by Mel

✨Reality✨

So much pain and struggle
Can't handle it all, because strong I'm definitely hella not
The past I cannot help, but 24/7 I miserably dwell

Useless I am, not much to offer, whatever I do, it's just not enough
Please, don't ever expect me to get 100% well
Don't give a fuck anymore, but I'm trying.. hahah sike I'm so fucking done
Rude I try not to be, if I am don't mind me or yo don't be afraid to point it out for me

This place gives me the worst kinda chill, please get me out of here
Actually, I would rather be in a jail cell
Honestly I wanna go back there
At that place, I was trying my best and was on my way to get well
These peeps don't get it, I'm so sorry to say this but they need an extra ear

To make myself suffer I know all about, but from you I did not expect at all
Just go ahead and tell me to shut up
Inside I'm lower than low, but outside I might probably seem really tall
Addictively and constantly sipping on a coffee cup

I'm so sorry if I constantly interrupt
Not my intention, I swear it's not
Badly I want to trust my stupid gut
Trust? That I won't

Trying to live life, so damn unsure about every single little thing
Unable to separate reality and shit
For me, love is everything

Forever I'll hold onto memories of us
Family and friends I can't live without
I'm so sorry, can't help but think everyone is sus
"I love you all forever and ever!" Badly I want to shout it out!

- Mel Rose